My life is not perfect.
I like it that way.
Once upon a time, I didn’t like it that way. Once upon a time, I believed a perfect life was an antidote to everything I did not like in my life. I spent a lot of time trying to achieve perfection.
And then I fell.
In falling, I discovered the perfection of being in the mess of life. Because, let’s face it, life is messy.
Learning to accept life’s messiness has many gifts. Peace of mind. Contentment. Joy. Life without fear.
When I was striving to create ‘the perfect life’, I spent a lot of time in fear. Fear I’d never make it. Fear I’d be found out as a fraud (perfection is not attainable but I sure tried to act like it was). Fear I’d never reach my goal (which was true because it’s impossible to reach something that does not exist.)
Living in the messy, I am free to celebrate every moment, triumphs and mishaps, highs and lows, falling and flight.
I am free to dance in the rain, and walk blithely under an umbrella.
I am free to sing out loud, and sit in silent contemplation.
In the messy, there is no right way. There is only the way I choose that works for me. And when I choose to walk in love, creating better in the world around me, my way works for me and the world around me.
Once upon a time, I thought a perfect life was the one where I’d always be happy, always feel ‘on my game’, always have everything I wanted.
In real time, I know striving for ‘the perfect life’ is not a goal worth achieving.
In real time, I relish the messy because the messy is full of juicy moments to explore as I dive deep into living from the inside out and outside in, breathing deeply into the beauty and wonder of every facet of my world.
In the messy, I’m okay with beauty and the beast, yin and yang, yoda and Darth Vader. Because in the messy, there is light and dark, all and nothing. And in the all and nothing of this precious life, there is everything I need to know happiness, joy, contentment, love. Because, in the messy. there is perfection in the messy when I am loving all of me, inside and out.