I’m on a zoom call when I hear the noise. Screaming and squawaking like someone, something is in pain.
My heart pounding, I pull off my headset and race upstairs from my office. When I get to the front door, I am too late. The crow has already raided the nest.
My chickies are gone.
Mama robin is confused. She keeps returning to the nest, food in beak. She stand on the edge looking in. Flies off. Returns.
Again and again.
I wish I spoke Robin. If I did I would go out and tell her what has happened. Tell her that this safe haven is no longer safe. That nature has taken its course. A predator has destroyed her hopes and dreams.
Her returning, again and again, is heartbreaking.
Finally, after several flights back and forth, she leaves and does not return.
The nest still rests on the wreath at our front door. Evidence of her industrious build, and the crow’s insurgence.
I know I need to clean it all up. I know I need to sweep away the debris. Clear the wreath of its presence.
Later, I tell myself.
For now, I continue to walk past the front door and glance up through the half moon transom window as if expecting to see her sitting on the rim of the nest, a tiny worm dangling from her beak, the eager mouths of her young open, waiting for it to fall.
Someone said, “Well, that’s nature. Were you upset when she fed a tiny worm to her babies?”
No. But, I’ve never bonded with a worm. I’ve never followed its conception journey.
This mother arrived at our front door while I was away in mid May. She spent a week crafting her nest, two weeks sitting on her eggs and up until yesterday, 10 days tending to her young.
And, while I knew they would eventually fly away and be gone, I felt like I was part of nature’s beauty unfolding. I was part of their journey.
We are using our front door again.
This morning, Beaumont the Sheepadoodle and I left the house through it for our early morning walk.
When we returned, I stood on the front steps for a moment, closed my eyes and bid farewell to my avian companions.
I know it is nature. But sometimes the nature of this world to destroy, the nature of predators to swoop in and tear apart families, to blow up hopes and dreams of the young, sometimes, it makes me cry.
I sit silently and watch the river flow. Fast and deep. Spring run-off continues. The sky above is grey. The trees are in full bloom, green leaves dancing in the morning breeze. A squirrel scampers along the top of the fence. Birdsong fills the air.
The Boston Fern on our deck turns gently in the breeze. I spy a baby finches head peeking out from its nest within the fern.
And as I type, the papa finch lands on the railing of the deck outside my window.
I watch him. He tilts his head back and a gentle song rises out. It is a beautiful reminder of what is true, no matter the times, no matter the circumstances.
All of nature is a miracle.
All of it. Darkness and light. Yin and yang. Predators and prey.
We are all born miracles of life.
Sometimes, we lose our way.
The miracle is, most of us don’t.
Namaste.
Your story, beautifully told, is a metaphor. Maybe not book-length material, but certainly essay length – write it while the heat is in you …
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Thank you Mark! working on it.
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I just knew when the title popped up that something terribly horrible had transpired with your tenants. My fears were confirmed as I read your words grappling with the reality that nature has its own code of life, its own way of dealing with the circle of life and we, the humans, are simply bystanders. You got to enjoy a few days, cherish those moments. Now the finches have your attention. Let’s hope this family has better success
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It was a special time Iwona — thank you for framing it so beautifully β€
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I was so afraid of this. Sigh… Life is hard, isn’t it?
I think I would discourage any future birds from trying to nest in your door! Beautifully told, though.
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Yes, it can be hard DAle — and I’m with you on the door! β€ π
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The circle of life is both wonderful and heartbreaking and then wonderous all over again. Blessings to you as you grieve for your robin babies and find a way to heal.
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Thank you Lori — so true, it is wondrous and breathtaking and at times heart-breaking. β€
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Well that sucks……….
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That it does my friend. β€
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Sometimes we lose our way
The miracle is that most of us don’t
Those words really resonated with me. Thanks
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You’re welcome Bernie. I’ve been holding them close since I wrote them — and they ring with such a beautiful truth — like the Finch’s song. β€
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I felt quite lost earlier this year and am still sorting out how things are rolling now within our family.
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Thanks for sharing.your beautiful story.
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Thank you for reading and commenting. Much gratitude
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So sad. I too watch our nests and curse the crows and hawks that circle above, nature is brutal.
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I feel like I REALLY should have begun reading from the start, as I was commenting much later what you described here…. sorry for that. My tiny sausage dog once got a young bird from a nest (stupidly) built in a low shrub near our door. I was so sorry for the bird’s mum but also had to say that if my silly doggie manages to catch a BIRD it cannot be his (her!) fault because birds-nests are NOT supposed to be on the height of a small dog. Nature is nature and nature can be cruel, just as our lives can be cruel – and are yet the most beautiful thing to happen to us.
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So lovely to see you Kiki — and so very true — nature is beautiful and cruel and harsh and gentle and inspiring and awe-catching and defying. All of it is part of life!
Much love to you and gratitude for sharing your beautiful life here! β€
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