It was a day of joy, of heartfelt sharing, of minds opening up to the possibility of more, of hearts awakening to the beat of their own drum.
It was a day where I became, once again, immersed in the awe of our human being.
I don’t have a lot of time to post when I’m at Choices. Long days, short nights, early mornings create little space for time at the keyboard. And, as one of the most important rules of Choices is to take care of yourself, I must honour my bodies need for sleep — even when my mind is full of thoughts that want to spill out, my body says, shhhh. Be still. Be calm. Be quiet. You must rest.
Listening to my body is not something I’ve been particularly adept at. I am learning to heed it. I am learning to listen for its cues that tell me, I’m hungry. I’m cold. I’m tired. And then, to nourish it with what it needs — which is a big departure from past behaviours for me. Where once I would have disregarded my bodies insistence that I sleep, I have learned to give into tiredness and be still when stillness is required.
It makes a difference. To how I feel, how I act, how I am present in my day.
It was a great day yesterday. And it was only the beginning. We began at 9am. The trainees came into the room at 12:30 and at 10:15 we said good night to them and had a brief team meeting. Home by 11, I couldn’t sleep. My mind wanted to keep treasuring each moment of the day and my body wanted to dance.
But I know today is an even longer day. Coaches meeting at 8 and we won’t be out of the seminar room until at least 10. I want to sleep. My mind is full. And so, I do what I know will give me space to let go, to release, to find peace. I do what has always been my path to letting go, I write it out. I let these feelings of awe and joy and peace that wash over me like a warm gentle mist of Love out through letting the words form upon the screen into sentences and thoughts that say, I am content. I am replete. I am at peace.
I am. All of this and more. I am grateful.
And now, I shall sleep.