My Note from The Universe has given me pause for thought this morning: “Louise, happiness postponed until dreams are realized is happiness that never comes. You already rock.”
The note began with a request that I think about all the dreams I’ve had that have already come true. And reminded me of how often I’d said, “when I have….; when I do….;” how fulfilled I’ll feel, how my life will be on fire, how I”ll know all things are possible…
Keep your promises, The Universe admonished.
A couple of years ago, I made a promise to myself that I would eventually clean out the basement and turn it into a studio. Last fall, I kept that promise.
Several years ago, when I was released from a relationship that was killing me, I made a commitment to myself that I would write a book about my experiences. The purpose wasn’t to retell the sordid details of those dark days. My purpose was to inspire others going through similar experiences. To let them know, they were not alone. There was hope. They could survive. And thrive.
Last week, I received a phone call from a producer of a documentary show that was filmed here last fall about my journey through that relationship. The crew flew in from the US to interview me and my eldest daughter as well as some other’s who were involved in the story. The documentary is finished. It will air sometime this spring. It is the second documentary made about that story. The other still shows up on the Oprah Network. I continue to get emails from people telling me how the story inspires them, touches them, helps them.
It is a promise fulfilled.
When I was in that relationship, Conrad liked to tell me how he would give me ‘the story of my lifetime’. It would be all about him. How he turned from the darkness of a life of crime (he told me he was a member of an organized family) and created a world of value through love.
I did get ‘the story of my lifetime’ — it’s just not the one he imagined.
The story of my lifetime is the one I’m living today. This story where I am free of the fears and anxieties of the past. This story where I am centre stage of my own life, fully, completely, passionately alive.
Living my dreams, now.
But here’s the catch.
I’ve got some dreams I’m not living fully. I’ve got some thoughts I’m not expressing freely. I’ve got some goals I have not yet realized.
What’s it going to take?
“A dream is your creative vision for your life in the future. You must break out of your current comfort zone and become comfortable with the unfamiliar and the unknown.” Denis Waitley*
Am I stuck in my current comfort zone? Is fear holding me back from really getting big, large, outrageously living my dreams?
But whoa, my inner critic calls out. Shouldn’t you be getting ready to retire?
I am not the ‘retiring’ kind. I do not envisage sitting with my feet up, sipping tea and playing bridge in the afternoons.
It is not my nature.
The other night at dinner with my youngest daughter, I laughingly told her I thought it was time I ‘reinvented myself as an artist.’
There is truth in laughter.
If I were to paint a picture of my life 1 year, 3 years, 5 years down the road, what would I create?
I would create a life where I am ‘out there’ doing what I’m doing now, sharing my stories of living in the rapture of now on the outside of your comfort zone. I would be painting and writing daily and using all my creative expressions to inspire others to delve into theirs and express themselves, in every way possible.
And then, I think about Denis Waitley, the author of the quote above.
He built an empire on his capacity to inspire and motivate people until one day it was discovered that all his admonitions to people to Speak Up. Tell the truth and Stay Unattached to the Outcome were built upon a lie he’d told about his education. He didn’t have a Masters Degree from The Naval Academy and his PhD could not be verified. (source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Denis_Waitley)
Denis Waitley encouraged people to get out of their comfort zones and live it up.
So do I.
But… what if in not living my truth beyond my wildest imaginings I am withholding my best, turning my back on the abundant nature of the Universe and its desire to create better?
It is a desire that can only be achieved through each of us expressing ourselves in our own unique and creative ways.
What if each of us is here on this planet to live it up? To express ourselves through continuously stepping beyond the limits of our comfort zone. Actions that will further the evolutionary promise that is human kind?
What if we are each stuck, in some way, in our comfort zones. Living and loving life, but holding onto unmet, unexpressed dreams?
What’s it gonna’ take for each of us to know we make a difference in this world, each and every day — and it’s up to us to live it to our fullest through the fulfillment of our dreams.