I am breathing.
Mist enshrouds the trees that line the road across from where I sit in a blanket of soft billowy white. Mysterious. Ethereal. Beguiling.
I am here to immerse myself in The Embodied Present Process.
I am here, curious, open, resistant and accepting. I am here. All of me. However I am.
We live in a world of infinite possibilities. Limitless until we define them and limit them by our beliefs of what is possible.
Yesterday, as I travelled across the country, I overheard smatterings of conversations that reflected our human (cultural) beliefs of what is the right way, and the not so right way, to ‘do’ life.
“Put your bag on the conveyor just so,” the computer flashes at check-in.
Follow the yellow line,” the sign at security reads. “Show me your boarding pass.” And then, once checked against the computer’s files, you pass and continue on to the next gate, the next checkpoint, the next place in line.
Line up here for coffee. Sit here to wait.
We are loading by Zone. Don’t get in the wrong zone.
You’re in the wrong zone. Go back and wait.
Everywhere, there are signs and reminders on how to behave, where to go, what to do so that we can keep life organized, controlled, systemized.
And then life happens and its happenings brings us face to face with the limits of our beliefs on how things ‘should’ be instead of our capacity to accept ‘what is’ with grace. Trapped in the belief it should be another way, or there is no other way, we struggle to make sense of what is as we attempt to outthink our circumstances with the very same thinking that has us trapped in our circumstances.
Frustrated, frightened, confused, we struggle to find the right tools to use to fix it, change it, reorganize it into something we can live with. Never realizing the tools at our disposal are limited by our belief of what tools will work in our life.
In the process of sorting out what to do, we become trapped in our head’s belief it can make sense of whatever’s going on if it just keeps re-working the story. Or, it can at least make everything fit into a box of our understanding if we just keep re-telling the story as we know it.
I am relearning how to live my life this week from deep within my body. I am learning to breathe. To be. To feel.
I am learning to release my thoughts of all I think I know to move out of my headspace deep into my body.
I am moving into the stillness within, finding myself grounded deep within my core as I move down, down down, out of my head deep into my body where life is calling me to awaken to living through all my senses deeply connected to the beauty and wonder of life and all its limitless possibilities.
It is a journey of wonder. Of hesitation. Of leaping first, thinking next. Of leaning in. Of curving back.
It is a journey worth taking.