This morning I cried. I cried and let my tears fall unchecked by thoughts of why I needed to stop and pull myself together.
These tears do not pull me down. They do not pull me apart.
They set me free.
Free to love myself and all the world. Free to love these tears of sorrow, of grief, of sadness, of anxiety, of fear.
These tears are for me, for you, for our city, country, world.
They are tears for all humankind as we journey together while staying apart, through this pandemic that is radically changing the world as we knew. They are tears for heartbeats stopped and lives slipping away as the world keeps turning and the virus keeps spreading.
Last night, on a zoom call with a couple of friends, I mentioned how I was struggling to stay positive.
Well, you can’t be positive all the time, one of my friends suggested.
There is no virtual wall of positivity strong enough to keep my emotions dammed up. They must be released. Tears are the pathway to my heart beating free of fear.
Fearlessly breathing with all my heart, I find myself drawn by courage to ask, “What does the world need now?”
This morning I cried and allowed my tears to flow freely. In their release, my heart opened and I flowed freely into the sacred intimacy of the moment, without fear, without trepidation. Embraced by the sacredness of ‘the now’, my tears washed down my cheeks and I sank into the deep still waters of life flowing around and within me.
It was there that the answer to my tears arose. “What the world needs now, is Love. Sweet Love.”
In this crazy-messed up, virus-bewildered world, there is so little I can give or do to relieve the pressure we all feel in this time of Covid-19.
And so, I give all that I can. Love.
I give you Love.
I have Love for you.
It is the only medicine I can carry into the darkness of these days where uncertainty grapples with my peace of mind as I struggle to find my balance in the turmoil of the unknown.
It is all that I have to share with those who are sick, those who have lost someone they love, those who are struggling to save lives, to care for lives, to take care of all of us sequestered in solitude in our homes.
Love is all I can give those who are scared. Lonely. Fearful of their next breath. Fearful of their next touch.
I give you my Love this morning. I give you my Love, always.
It may not stop this virus from sweeping across our planet, but Love is the only thing that can transform the fear that stalks our every breath into something we can hold onto so that we can all breathe freely.
Love. Sweet Love.