Yesterday, while visiting over at my friend Fi’s place, Inspiration to Dream, I discovered a site I’d never heard of before. Notes from the Universe. I clicked. Was intrigued. signed up and this morning got my first message. I Love It!

Now, you might wonder why I’d never heard of Notes or its founder Mike Dooley. I mean, seriously. Have I been hiding under a turnip leaf? Mike Dooley is featured in The Secret. He’s spoken on every continent except Antarctica. He’s written gazillion books (okay maybe not that many) but he’s sure written a lot. And, he’s an accountant!  I mean, I’m a card carrying member of the Writer’s Guild and he’s an accountant and he’s living my dream. What’s with that?

Oh right. He trusts in the Universe. He keeps doing his ‘what’ and trusts the Universe to take care of the how.

In fact, that’s how his Notes from the Universe and all the rest of his work was created. He kept doing ‘the what’ and trusted ‘the how’ to appear in the Universe’s time. And it did.

I discovered this gap in my trust last year when I took a 40 day online retreat with Abbey of the Arts. Every day of the retreat, I meditated on the proscribed text, created a mandala, shared my observations and in the process, wrote the entire 21 day course material for Right Your Heart Out, wrote a poem a day for my beloved, wrote an annual report for a client and the list goes on. I kept doing my what and the universe kept appearing — I don’t know how.

And through it all I discovered — I don’t trust the Universe.

I mean, I get that it’s big and it’s got my back — but do I? Do I really trust it is for me, with me, that it is in the best interests of the Universe that I succeed, that I shine my light as bright as my light can be? That each of us shine brilliantly so that the path out of the darkness can be illuminated in the light of our hearts beating in time to the abundant awesomeness that is life on planet earth. Do I get the Universe is me, and you and that we are each responsible for our journey into and through the light?

Last night on my call-in for the Living An Enlightened Life course I’m taking, one of the participants said, “Tomorrow is a thousand years away and yesterday is a thousand years ago.”

Now is all I have.

Right now is all there is for me to turn up, pay attention, speak my truth and stay unattached to the outcome.

Right now is all  have to live with integrity, be responsible, do my duty for the unfolding of the evolutionary impulse within me driving me to create more of what works in my life so that I can and do shine.

Right now is all there is. I’ve got all the time in the world for right now to unfold. And when I don’t trust the Universe to be present, I am only living one part of my right now. In my distrust I am withholding the best parts of me from the Universe because… I fear… what might happen, or not, if I truly let it rip and live my dreams. I worry… the Universe might not turn up — at least not for me.  Excuse me? I’m that important it will single me out for special treatment!  🙂

I dream of writing full time. I dream of speaking about life and living and shining bright and inspiring others to shine.

Dreaming doesn’t make my dreams come true. Action does. Speaking up does. Doing my what does.

I don’t know how the Universe works. I do know how I work. I do know the work I need to do to make it possible for the how to appear in this world of wonder, this world of infinity possibility.

So thank you Universe. I got your message. I’m listening and breathing into this moment right now — and along the way I’m laughing out loud at how stuck I can get in believing it’s all up to me! Aren’t I the funny one! 

My Note from the Universe today.

Do you know the main difference, Louise, between messing with the cursed hows and turning them over to me? 

Besides smoother, more radiant skin. 

No, besides more free time. 

No, besides more interest income. 

Right! More laughter! 

Tallyho,
    The Universe