I got me some serious self-doubts going on.
Breathe. I admitted it. I am wracked with self-doubt and nothing you can say is gonna change it.
See, I just don’t want to believe I can be all that I dream of being. That the universe holds for me anything other than the daily grind of living the 9 to 5. I just don’t want to give up on mistrusting the universe because…. well, it’s a mighty big universe and if I give up on my disbelief what will I believe in? What will hold me up and keep me plodding along if I’m wrong?
But then, what if the universe really is an ever-expanding field of opportunity and possibility? What if there are no limits?
Last night, my friend Ian Munro of Leading Essentially, and I, sat and chatted and plotted about The Essential Journey course outline we are creating based on Kerry Parson’s teachings of what it means to live from our essential essence. In Kerry’s Essential Journey we have ‘The Adapted Self’ and the Essential Self at play. Most times, we don’t even realize that our adapted self has kicked in, has always been in control, has always held the reins on our dreams, because we’ve so adapted our thinking to believing the limitations of the ego that we can’t believe there is something else possible.
Believe me, it’s true.
There’s something else possible.
It’s just our limited thinking can’t imagine what we don’t know. It can’t believe there’s something beyond the limits of our comfort zone — or at least that if there is something beyond what we know, it’s not going to hurt us.
We fear the unknown. We fear what we cannot see, what we’ve never before perceived and never before experienced. Which means, we fear the pain we cannot imagine but assume is there, over the pain we already know of living within the limits of our adapted selves. Because, if we’ve got pain and fear today, there must be pain and fear tomorrow. Right?
Just because it is this way today, was this way yesterday, does not mean it must be the same tomorrow. We can break free. Right now. We can reclaim our essential because our essential essence has never left us.
We were born that way. Essentially alive. Perfectly human. Divine. Great. Magnificent.
And then we forgot.
We forgot about expansiveness as we breathed into fear. We forgot about living large as we learned to play small. And, we forgot about our brilliance as we toned down our light to not shine out beyond the edges of our belief, fitting in is all that matters.
We got busy adapting to life’s ups and downs. We got engrossed in adapting our thinking, and thus our being, into fitting into the boxes the world presents us. Seeing a box that seems to fit, that doesn’t stretch us too much beyond what we can imagine, we step in and get comfortable. And in our comfortable place, we move forward with living. Except, in living from within a box full of comfort, we forget that out there, beyond the box, life is happening at the speed of evolutionary light shining brightly.
I got me some self-doubts.
And I got me some possibilities.
Which will I breathe into today?
To doubt oneself is perfectly human. It’s just not essential to living this one wild and passionate life in the rapture of now.
To lean into limitless possibility, I must surrender my disbelief of what is possible and fall into the universe’s limitless capacity to turn up and be brilliant. I must give into my soul’s yearning to shine.
Care to shine along? Together we could light a path into tomorrow that will blow the foundations of our adapted selves struggling to stay alive today… Let’s shine!