Her text came in at 1am. I heard it’s distinctive ping as I was talking with her older sister. Her text had come in at midnight. A midnight call for help.
I called, we chatted and in the midst of our talk, her younger sister text from Amsterdam to say, ‘we’re here.’
She’s on her way home.
I text back, “My heart is happy. Falling into blissful sleep now,” after her sister and I ended our conversation.
And it’s true. My heart is happy. She is on her way home.
“You’d make a terrible foreign correspondent mother,” my eldest daughter proclaimed.
And she’s right. I would.
And I’m okay with that. Neither of them are foreign correspondents. Neither of them are delving into war torn lands searching for the stories that will awaken our hearts and minds to the need for peace.
But they are, delving in. My eldest daughter delves into matters of the heart and soul every day on her blog, The Wunder Year. Courageously, fearlessly she treds into those vulnerable places where man shies away from. With great heart she opens up her inner world to shine the light for others to see where they need not fear themselves.
It is her fearlessness and honesty that precipitated her midnight text. “Do you regret what you wrote?” I asked. “No,” she replied. “I needed to speak the truth to live without fear.”
In the truth, a door opens, a conversation begins that points towards the light, away from the deeper darkness of the secrets of the heart that kept her apart from someone she loves. In her truth, she is free.
I am proud of my daughters. Proud and oh so grateful for their fearless pursuit of life beyond their comfort zones.
And though I may sometimes worry, my worry is just the stuff of a mother’s heart that would protect her children from scrapes and bruises and falling down upon life’s road.
But that’s not my job. My job is to be here. To stand with open arms and heart, to be that place they can come when they feel the stings of life’s arrows piercing through the delicate fabric of their heart.
My job is to love them, no matter what, in all kinds of weather, in every kind of situation, in every circumstance.
And I do.
I am so blessed.