It wasn’t supposed to be this easy.

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I almost dropped my mug of coffee as I was taking a sip this morning.

I was reading my morning, A Note from the Universe, when a laugh erupted from my belly, causing the almost coffee incident. Which would not have been pretty. My mug was poised over my laptop keyboard. It would have made a mess.

But seriously, after years of searching and looking and seeking and defining and refining and clarifying my purpose statement, to read the message the Universe has for me  this morning was quite funny.

Louise, here’s a hint on figuring out your life’s purpose:

It almost never lies behind the door marked, “Just be logical.”

Tallyho,
The Universe

P.S. Louise, just busy yourself doing what you most want, among the choices now before you, and before long your life’s purpose will find you.

What?  My purpose will find me? I don’t have to find it?

Ha! What will I do with myself if I’m not purpose driven to be finding my purpose?  How will I find meaning and significance?  How will I know I’m making a difference if I don’t measure everything I do and say against my search for meaning in a purpose driven life?

You want me to just live from my heart and trust my purpose to find me in that place?

What if it gets lost?  What if it doesn’t see what I want it to see as my purpose?

Ooops. There’s that trust thing again. Trust in the process. Trust in Life and Love and Living in the rapture of now.

Which is what made me laugh out loud this morning. (sorry Ellie for waking you from your slumbers on your mat behind my desk. I know you took the long walk from the bedroom when I walked out of the kitchen towards the office with my coffee this morning. A left out the door, a few feet into the office only to collapse onto your mat in here with a disgruntled grunt before falling back to sleep. I know I disturbed you and I’m sorry. How can I make it up to you? Oh, a steak for breakfast. We’ll see — my purpose isn’t to cater to your every need you know. The Universe has bigger plans for me — I’m just trying to figure out what they are…)

Right. So where was I? Oh yeah. Trust in the process. Trust in Life and Love and Living in the rapture of now.

Arrgghhhh!

I have spent my entire life teaching myself to trust in no one but me! Trust in the Universe. Let go of my belief that ‘the process’ of life is complex, complicated, mysterious? You want me to let go and live from my heart and let my purpose find me?

Get real. I have a fortune invested in books that teach me how to ‘find your purpose’, ‘live with intention’, create a life plan — and you’re telling me all I have to do is do what calls my heart, and let the rest just ‘happen’? Because when I live from my heart, when I do the things that call me awake, my purpose will find me where ever I’m at?

That’s it?

It’s that easy?

No. No. No.

It’s gotta be harder than that. It’s gotta be a task. A challenge. An obstacle course of mysterious trials and rituals designed just for me to discover, ‘this is the meaning of my life’.

Dang.

I thought it was supposed to be hard. I thought it was only worthwhile if it was difficult, challenging, nerve-wrackingly tough.

And now you say — just get busy doing what’s in front of me that I really want to do — and leave the rest up to you?

What if you let me down? … What if you screw up?… What if… you don’t turn up?

Yeah! What if you don’t turn up?

I mean, seriously, if I don’t leave directions. If I don’t map it out clearly, marking boundaries and borders, portals and passageways, how will I be sure you’ve found me acting out in the right purpose?

Yes. I hear you.

Trust in the process. Do one of the many things in front of me that calls to me, and trust, my purpose will turn up.

Sigh.

It wasn’t supposed to be this easy.

It wasn’t supposed to be this plain and simple.

Another sigh.

I got the message.

Loud and clear.

Thanks Universe.

Now, where did I put my helmet and pickaxe. I gotta get busy diggin’ up what’s in front of me, right now!

Have a nice day y’all!  🙂

 

 

 

25 thoughts on “It wasn’t supposed to be this easy.”

  1. Trust, have faith, don’t worry, it’ll all show itself when it’s ready…!
    Arrrrrh…. Louise, this is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do – nothing (absolutely nothing)…. whilst waiting for ‘whatever’ to show itself, begin, align, present itself… Arrr… and then ‘all is well’ again…
    Is there any other way..!?! I don’t think so. It always turns out ‘okay’ when I ‘let it happen’…!!! 😉
    So hard sometimes… 😉

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  3. Messages have been coming at me the last few days about following my dream, figuring out what it is, etc. Lots to think about. There’s that synchronicity thing again. And now you add a reminder I need — I tend to make things hard and look for struggle instead of it letting it flow. Great post.

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    • Thanks Leigh — it is one of my traits too — make things hard instead of letting them flow.

      Let’s release the need to make it hard together — btw — I wrote in my nightly journal about my releasing of some ancestral issues — thank you for hte inspiration! I am still processing but will be writing about it here soon. Blessings my friend.

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      • Ooh, I’m thinking I might make another little ceremony,,, Yes, let’s let it go,
        Love to hear you released ancestral issues and look forward to reading about it!

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  4. Ha ha. I had to smile at this post because I have been pursuing this very thing and have drafted some posts as I was wondering the same thing – this pressure I put on myself to supposedly find my purpose. Surely it is not meant to be this difficult? Or maybe it was never meant to be as simple as I previously thought. I like your approach – just take it as it comes.

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    • You remind me Elizabeth of when I first got out of that relationship and wrote in my journal as I contemplated the road of healing before me — Now for the hard part.

      and then, I stopped and wrote — wait a minute. Who says this has to be hard? it is my path. I get to choose how I walk it. And choosing hard is what I just did. Maybe, I get to choose making it loving — and leave the judgements of my journey out of it… 🙂

      Taking it as it comes means being open to whatever comes — without letting my ego tell me — it is anything other than what it is!

      Have a beautiful — soul-inspiring day.

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  6. Surrender to that all knowing-ness. The Source knows who you are, has your back and loves you more than can be imagined. It’s funny this would come up for me to read right after I posted a poster about my soul and surrendering. Synchronicity at work here. ha ha!

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    • 🙂 Susan — funny — I hadn’t realized it until I read your comment — that is how I felt. A burden of something, of heavy responsibility, a sense that it was my purpose to ‘fix’ it all — has lifted and I am free! Woo Hoo! Watch me fly!

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  10. For me you just described vision. There’s a proverb that says something like God gives you the desires of your heart. I used to think it meant that if I want a Mercedes he’ll give it to me but I now know it means that He places a call on your heart and then empowers you to act on it. I love this post Louise and in so many ways your life, your friendship, your posts are all a testament to you fulfilling your purpose.

    xo
    Diana

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