I almost dropped my mug of coffee as I was taking a sip this morning.
I was reading my morning, A Note from the Universe, when a laugh erupted from my belly, causing the almost coffee incident. Which would not have been pretty. My mug was poised over my laptop keyboard. It would have made a mess.
But seriously, after years of searching and looking and seeking and defining and refining and clarifying my purpose statement, to read the message the Universe has for me this morning was quite funny.
Louise, here’s a hint on figuring out your life’s purpose:
It almost never lies behind the door marked, “Just be logical.”
P.S. Louise, just busy yourself doing what you most want, among the choices now before you, and before long your life’s purpose will find you.
What? My purpose will find me? I don’t have to find it?
Ha! What will I do with myself if I’m not purpose driven to be finding my purpose? How will I find meaning and significance? How will I know I’m making a difference if I don’t measure everything I do and say against my search for meaning in a purpose driven life?
You want me to just live from my heart and trust my purpose to find me in that place?
What if it gets lost? What if it doesn’t see what I want it to see as my purpose?
Ooops. There’s that trust thing again. Trust in the process. Trust in Life and Love and Living in the rapture of now.
Which is what made me laugh out loud this morning. (sorry Ellie for waking you from your slumbers on your mat behind my desk. I know you took the long walk from the bedroom when I walked out of the kitchen towards the office with my coffee this morning. A left out the door, a few feet into the office only to collapse onto your mat in here with a disgruntled grunt before falling back to sleep. I know I disturbed you and I’m sorry. How can I make it up to you? Oh, a steak for breakfast. We’ll see — my purpose isn’t to cater to your every need you know. The Universe has bigger plans for me — I’m just trying to figure out what they are…)
Right. So where was I? Oh yeah. Trust in the process. Trust in Life and Love and Living in the rapture of now.
I have spent my entire life teaching myself to trust in no one but me! Trust in the Universe. Let go of my belief that ‘the process’ of life is complex, complicated, mysterious? You want me to let go and live from my heart and let my purpose find me?
Get real. I have a fortune invested in books that teach me how to ‘find your purpose’, ‘live with intention’, create a life plan — and you’re telling me all I have to do is do what calls my heart, and let the rest just ‘happen’? Because when I live from my heart, when I do the things that call me awake, my purpose will find me where ever I’m at?
It’s that easy?
No. No. No.
It’s gotta be harder than that. It’s gotta be a task. A challenge. An obstacle course of mysterious trials and rituals designed just for me to discover, ‘this is the meaning of my life’.
I thought it was supposed to be hard. I thought it was only worthwhile if it was difficult, challenging, nerve-wrackingly tough.
And now you say — just get busy doing what’s in front of me that I really want to do — and leave the rest up to you?
What if you let me down? … What if you screw up?… What if… you don’t turn up?
Yeah! What if you don’t turn up?
I mean, seriously, if I don’t leave directions. If I don’t map it out clearly, marking boundaries and borders, portals and passageways, how will I be sure you’ve found me acting out in the right purpose?
Yes. I hear you.
Trust in the process. Do one of the many things in front of me that calls to me, and trust, my purpose will turn up.
It wasn’t supposed to be this easy.
It wasn’t supposed to be this plain and simple.
I got the message.
Loud and clear.
Now, where did I put my helmet and pickaxe. I gotta get busy diggin’ up what’s in front of me, right now!
Have a nice day y’all! 🙂