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A blog by Louise Gallagher

Learning to receive fills my cup.

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I like to give. I like to share. My time. My words. My insights. My gifts. Myself. It is how I express, Love.

I’m not so good at receiving.

This fact hit home last week when, while talking to a friend about the book,  The 5 Love Languages, by Gary Chapman, I mentioned how while my primary love language is Acts of Service, I have difficulty receiving in my language. 

“How do you fill your cup?” my friend asked.

Good question.

Giving is receiving. It’s true. I receive so much writing here every morning. Clarity. Learning. Sharing. Connecting. Friendship. An opportunity to live on purpose. A chance to grow and deepen my understanding of who I am and how I am in the world — and to share other people’s feelings, thoughts, ideas. It is a gift.

In the 3-D world, the place I live everyday, I like to give. I’m not so good at the receiving end of the equation. Which means, there’s little balance in the equation — and the universe loves for it all to add up to equal Love on every side of the equation.

Recently, at a dinner party here at the house for my youngest daughter’s birthday, I got a spasm in my lower back and eventually, realizing that my constant grimaces of pain were not only making my guests uncomfortable but also making me cry in public (something I do not like to do, thank you very much!) I had to leave our guests and go lie down. “You need Robaxacet,” a friend of my daughter’s said.

But I didn’t have any. “I’ll go to the drug store and get you some,” she said.

“Oh no,” I demurred. “Don’t do that. You’re here to enjoy the party. I’ll just take an Advil and lie down for a bit.” And I snuck off to our bedroom and lay down. As long as I didn’t move, my back was quiet. But one little move and it felt like someone was setting fire crackers off deep in my butt. I lay in the dark and waited for the Advil to kick in. It wasn’t happening.

And then, the door opened and two of my daughter’s friends walked in with a glass of water and a box of Robaxacet. They’d driven to the drug store to buy me some.

I felt blessed. Cherished. Loved.

It was a beautiful gift. I had to ‘get conscious’ about my tapes firing around how I had caused them trouble, put them to too much bother. I had to receive, without pushing away their gift.

It was the integrity-filled thing to do. I wanted to honour their gift and all my protestations of ‘you shouldn’t have’ would only have diminished their thoughtfulness. They didn’t deserve that.

Neither did I.

C.C., my beloved, gets up every morning and makes me a smoothie. When I’m coaching at Choices this is a particularly challenging for him as he is definitely not a morning person, and Choices mornings begin early. I want to tell him, “don’t bother,” “I’ll be fine,” “I don’t need one,” but that actually would not be true. I love his smoothies. They balance my day. They set me up with a healthy start to the morning. To push away his gift would be to negate his act of love, and deny myself receiving his gift in my love language.

Why would I do that? What’s in it for me to not receive in the language of my heart?

To not receive with grace is mostly all about ego. It’s all about self-denial. About listening to the critter reminding me about how I don’t deserve, am not worthy of, or simply not important enough for others to do for me what I love to do for them.

I am learning.

I am growing.

I am expanding into grace.

Giving is receiving. and the corollary of that is, Receiving is giving.

To receive is to give what I want most for people to have and know — I honour their presence. I value their gifts. I love them.

To push away their acts of service, to deny their words of affirmation (which is my second love language), is to say — you’re not important. You don’t matter to me. I don’t ‘see’ you.

And that’s not true. And it’s definitely not what I want to create more of in my world.

I want the people around me to know I see them, hear them, love them. I want them to feel visible and loved, and real in my presence. I want them to know, I honour and value and cherish everything about them — and that includes the things they do for me, their acts of service, their words of affirmation, the sharing of themselves and their many gifts.

Giving brings me great joy. Learning to receive fills me up with Love. What a blessing.

Namaste.

 

 

 

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Author: Louise Gallagher

I believe we each have the capacity to be the change we want to see in the world, to make a world of difference. I believe we are creative beings on the journey of our lifetimes. It's up to each of us to Live It Up and SHINE!

22 thoughts on “Learning to receive fills my cup.

  1. Very profound and insightful – can’t wait to see you on our way home. Will give you advance notice.

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  2. I feel YOUR pain. I think that I connected with you on so many levels. First not to lighten the subject but I’ve got to Google Robaxacet! Lately (after never experiencing too many body aches in my life) I’ve just experienced a few back spasms myself if I stand in one place for too long and then try to move too quickly or sit in one place too long. It sucks getting old. Lol.
    Anyway, I LOVE that your daughter’s friends did such a sweet act of kindness for you! I hope they read your blog♡
    I think that we are alike in the way that we love to give but find it hard to receive. I am pretty sure that it has much to do with the abuse in our past. And not feeling worthy. Funny how God places us right in the perfect places to get the affirmations we so desperately need.
    Look at how your life has turned out. You are in a place of giving daily but the way you live your life, makes it impossible for you not to receive back. People just can’t help themselves♡
    😉

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  3. Louise,
    I so relate to this message as I too am learning the lesson of how to receive. I am good at giving but not so good at receiving! My love language is also acts of service and being blue/gold means that gifts are never given to my standard. This is what I am working at changing. You and I have much in common as it feels like you just wrote about me. Thank you for sharing and allowing me to see that I am not alone in that this is an area of difficulty for others as well. You are an amazing woman! Thank you for sharing! ❤

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  4. I love this post Louise. When we refuse to let others serve us, we rob them of a blessing!
    Diana xo

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  5. Oh yea. That receiving thing. Big challenge for lots of us.

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  6. Louise, I was reading my story! I too have come to realize that it robs others of the gift of giving! Thank you for sharing your love and insights. XO

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  7. Oops… That should be Gwen😄

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  8. I really love this post. Every word of it! (well except that you were in pain, ever!) How do I fill my cup? What an important question to ask ourselves frequently. And in receiving we bless those who would like to give to us. Such wisdom here. Thank you for sharing! ~Gina

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