This AND That.

It is the thing I am adjusting to the most with my neck — it is slowly improving though I don’t sleep as well as I normally do which means, I don’t wake up as easily, nor as early, as I normally do. After a restless night with sleep interrupted by my neck calling out for attention every time I roll over, I have been waking up at least an hour later than my preferred 5am.

Which means, I often don’t have the morning time to meditate and write.

I tell myself — You have to make a choice.

What feeds my soul?

I know that when I take time to meditate, my day begins in balance and harmony. The same can be said for writing every morning.

They both feed my soul.

“Is it an all or nothing? Either/or?” my inner guide asks me.

Can I create an opportunity for this, AND, that?

Writing is a form of meditation for me.

Write less. But write, my inner guide whispers.

Heeding her voice, I place my fingers on the keyboard to find the words flowing out.

Sometimes, we must adapt. To adapt, we must accept what is and not bemoan what was or spend our time wishing and hoping it was something else.

To bemoan the lateness of my arising, to wish my neck didn’t hurt or wake me up during the night, would be to diminish what I find, right now, waiting for me in this moment. It would steal this joy of sitting at my keyboard, typing and allowing the words to flow without worry and resentment clouding my mind.

Embracing what is, I let go of wishing now was any way other than how it is. In the presence of what is, right now, I breathe deeply into being present to allow myself the grace of treasuring this moment right now and finding joy in every breath stirring the beginnings of my day.

And the words flow and my awareness of my power to create value and find myself in this moment, right now, awakens.

I am so blessed.

14 thoughts on “This AND That.”

  1. If, instead of a sore neck, you had a broken rib – your pain and sleep disruption would be different, but no less real. Have you considered that write time and meditate time are not taking time from pain time – that they can exist at the ‘same time’ like so many other things. While you might have a scarcity of calm and painlessness, you still have an abundance of everything you had before your neck got sore. So write, meditate and do. Do different. Do more. Do. Don’t complain … says the guy not feeling any pain …

    Get well soon – please – and maybe switch from whine to wine …


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      1. while we can all empathize with your pains – I think your readers would agree you’ve been whining. OK to do it, I suppose, if it gives you energy, drive and ideas – otherwise, I’d suggest you focus on what you do well and keep doing it, because that is why we tune in every day. Every day. Be like an athlete – play through the pain …


  2. I am also working out my thinking in the midst of illness, being determined to not let the illness steal my power, fighting to keep worry and resentment out of my being. Your words were inspiring (once again) to me this morning and have been a soothing balm to my soul. Thank you for honestly sharing your struggle and your gracious triumph.

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    1. Thank you Jillybean for sharing your light and honesty here. An important distinction for me is to change my glasses — to not see my writing it out as ‘whining’ (sorry Mark) but to recognize it is part of my process of being vulnerable, of writing it out and finding value in all things. It is a process to move through it — and I like to share my process. 🙂 Hugs

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  3. Louise, I’ve been thinking about you and your neck and how to cope. The work that I do involves a lot of stuff about learning your body and its patterns and what connects to what. So with someone with an injured area, I work on releasing other places first. The neck relates so much to almost all the rest of the body, if you’d like to do some work with me that doesn’t ask you to move your neck, I’d actually start with releasing your feet and ankles (you’d be amazed how much they can affect the neck) and then maybe the knees and hips (even more relationship). Just in case you were feeling hesitant that I’d make you work that unhappy neck 🙂 yogaleigh @ earthlink dot net
    In the meantime, as one who’s had to put life on hold almost completely to get past the issues in my muscles and the many ways in which they affect my overall health, it’s a balancing act to make sure you’re giving your body ALL the care it needs and yet still be nurtured by doing other things that feel good. You’ll get it worked out– I have faith in that.
    And I don’t think you’re whining, I think you’re telling us how you feel — and it doesn’t always have to be “good”.

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  4. You have never been a whiner nor a complainer as you are always stoic and strong. You are allowed to let everyone know how you feel and what has been going on with your life. I also think that we are all allowed to have a little pity party now and then and a little whining. You, my little sis, will usually never let anyone know that you are not 100% so I am glad that you have shared your neck issues. Sending you healing thoughts and a very big hug! Much Love, Jackie

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    1. Thank you Jackie — spoken like a beautiful and true big sis! Letting people know when I am not 100% is part of my taking care of me attitude shift. 🙂 Even if I’m at a 3, I can be 100% at my 3. 🙂


  5. About six months ago I fell on ice and hurt my knee and was in agony and virtually incapacitated for six weeks. The first two weeks I fought against it and tried walking out of my injury. Big mistake. That made it worse. Eventually I gave into my temporary disability and just rested. I could not even sit at my computer or write! That was very difficult for me but it was what healed me in the end. Resting. As you say, sometimes we just need to accept and embrace what is. Sending you hugs and sunshine from Australia for a permanent recovery (however long it takes). 🙂


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