I know it is not good news even before I see the contents of the posts.
Three posts pop up the minute I open my email. They each contain the same word. Brussels.
I read the headlines. I read the stories. I search for more. I want to make sense of this senselessness.
My heart sinks. There is no sense to terror.
I want to cry. To scream out. To yell at someone to STOP IT! Just STOP IT.
And I know it is of no use.
Terror does not hear the voice of reason.
Terror only hears the voices of fear. Of Anger. Of Terror.
34 dead thus far in the bombings in Brussels.
And my heart is heavy.
When will we stop? When will we learn? When will we begin again to travel freely in this world without fear of one another.
And I wonder, Was it ever that way?
Was there ever a time in humankind’s history that we did not resort to violence? That we did not kill one another?
Was there ever a time of peace?
I go in search of data to make sense of my unease.
It is sobering. Over 10,000 people killed this year in conflicts around the globe.
The data does not help me feel better about the state of our world. Of the 196 countries that make up our world Global Conflict Tracker lists 26 countries engaged in conflicts (that impact the U.S.) significant enough to cause concern about the stability of the region, the country, the people’s ability to feel safe within their own border.
Please note: Global Conflict Tracker lists the countries in order of significance to the interests of the U.S.
7 conflicts of ‘critical impact on U.S. Interests’.
10 of ‘Significant impact on U.S. Interests’.
9 of ‘Limited Impact on U.S. Interests’.
This morning, the battle spilt out from beyond the boundaries of rational thought into the streets of Brussels. Its impact can be felt around the world.
I do not know how to make ‘them’ stop. Who are the ‘them’?
And then I remember. They are we and we are them. We are one human condition. One planet. One world. It is not ‘them’ versus us. It is our world that is decimated by these bombs and conflicts. Our world that is torn apart.
The loss of the lives killed in this latest attack will be felt around the globe.
They are touching me now.
And my heart is heavy.
I do not have an answer. I do not have words to ease the pain of the families and loved ones and friends left behind to mourn this sudden and inexplicable death of those they love.
I have no words.
And so, I do the only thing I know that I can do to make a difference.
I turn my back on war. I turn my back on the bloodshed and the chaos, and deepen my commitment to walk this day in Love and Peace. To walk each moment with a soft heart, voice, mind.
I cannot change the course of the 26 conflicts listed on Global Conflict Tracker’s site.
I can only ensure that what I do today does not contribute to war, to conflict, to anger, to fear.
And so, I chose love over fear. Always.
I am sorry Brussels for your pain. I am sorry for the terror that has erupted in your city. Your hearts. Your minds.
I send you Love. Always.