I had a great plan.
- Get back into the studio in the evenings. (I haven’t been in the studio throwing paint for a few weeks now. Busy-ness. New Job. Several events. Summer-like evenings and all that jazz kept getting in my way.)
- Wake up earlier (5am) to be able to meditate half an hour every morning followed by half an hour of yoga.
- Go to bed earlier. Lights out by 10:30.
- Check my diet. Ensure it is laden with nutrients and healthy foods.
- Walk an hour a day.
And, like many best laid plans, life got in the way.
Well, a cold actually.
I have managed to fulfill on Step 3 — Go to bed earlier. Sleep is about all that has been calling to me this past week and weekend. Sleep and more sleep. In fact, Saturday, which was a perfect summer day in the studio because of the rain, I did not get out of bed all day.
That’s the thing about ‘plans’.
You gotta be flexible. Adaptable. Kind.
Flexible enough to adapt your plan to unforeseen circumstances. A cold was not on my agenda, but, working back at a frontline homeless-serving agency it is in some ways inevitable. New venue. New germs. And as this is a child and family centered agency, there are always lots of germs floating around.
Years ago, when I started working at an adult shelter, even though I’m not frontline staff, I got a cold every month for a year. After that, my immune system had strengthened itself enough, I didn’t get another cold for the next five years I worked there.
I figure this may be part of my modus operendi. Condition my immune system with variable germs until its strong enough to defend itself.
At least, that’s the plan.
But then, you know what happens to the best laid plans…
We either adapt to present conditions or the plan falls apart.
In the case of a plan that doesn’t follow my script, there’s only one thing I can do, be kind to myself by treating myself with tender loving care, and when conditions improve, give myself the grace to …
Always begin again.
I am on the mend. The bloom is off my cold as its love affair with my immune system wanes. There are clear nasal passages and fewer coughs on the horizon.
All is good. My plan for now is to treat myself with tender loving care, allowing myself the grace to not appear anywhere at 5am except my bed. And if getting up whenever I get up does not allow enough time to appear here on the page, I’m okay with that too. It’s all in the plan.