On December 28 I made a commitment to write in my journal every day. Whether one word or a page, I will write with a pen whatever is on my mind.
Last night, after spending the day disrobing the Christmas tree, putting away the season’s finery, and putting the house back in order, followed by an evening binge-watch of a series on my laptop, I realized I had not yet written in my journal.
“It’s too late to do it now,” the critter whispered in my ear. “Save it for tomorrow.”
My commitment to myself saved me.
The inner loving voice of wisdom whispered, “Write this… I deserve to believe in myself. To trust me. To honour my commitments to me. I deserve my self-respect.”
I wrote out the words 3 x — and went on to fill out the page with my thoughts.
It has been a long (long) time since I wrote consistently by hand in my journal. Reawakening the habit requires consistency – and commitment keeping.
Keeping commitments to myself creates a world of difference for me. It ignites feelings of self-respect and love. It creates a sense of honour, like I can depend upon myself to turn up for me.
In fact, I have been doodling away at a novel I began writing last year and haven’t gotten very far – mostly because of self-excuses that let me off the hook of turning up for me.
In my journal, I have drafted the outline for the book along with the first three chapters.
That is progress.
That is turning up for me.
What about you? What commitments to yourself have you not kept, or would like to keep but are putting off or avoiding altogether?
What are the stories you tell yourself about why you haven’t turned up in full living-colour within your own life?
If you have anything on your list, here’s my recommendation:
Don’t think about all the reasons why not. Just Do.
- Don’t buy into your own excuses. Just Do
- Stop thinking about why you don’t, or why you shouldn’t, or all the other why nots that clatter around your brain. Just Do.
- Stop beating yourself up for not doing — Just Do.
- And above all, love yourself by turning up for yourself in your hesitation, stalling, confusion, regrets, excuses — and Just Do.
Don’t think. Just Do.