But first, to grieve.

My heart is heavy today. My thoughts sluggish.

I have no words to make sense of what happened in Newtown, Connecticut. I have no words to ease the pain and sorrow, the grief and confusion and sadness.

And so I pray.

I pray that we come to our senses.

I pray that we let go of anger, hatred, fear, whatever it is that would drive a young man, anyone, to kill innocent children, to kill anyone. No matter their age, whatever it is that makes sense for someone to do that, I pray we find a way through it that does not further the anger, hatred, fear or whatever it is that would drive a young man, anyone, to kill innocent children, to kill anyone.

I pray  for our world so badly in need of healing. So desperately in want of peace. So hungry for love.

I pray for the lost lives, the children who died and their parents and families who are missing the one they love. I pray for the teachers, principal, the mother who died, the brother and father of this young man who walked into a school and did such a horrendous, incomprehensible thing. And I pray for this young man who did this, for he was lost. So incredibly, terrifyingly lost.

And in my prayers and grief, I recommit to do whatever it takes to create ripples of love, of kindness, caring, compassion. I recommit to being only that which I want to create in the world. And in my commitment, I vow to not let anger take hold. To not let hatred grow. To not let fear consume me. I vow to only be that which I want to create in the world; peace, hope, love and joy.

But first, to grieve. To let tears flow. To let sorrow weep. To let my heart beat in time with those for whom the pain and horror of this tragedy is real and all-consuming.


21 thoughts on “But first, to grieve.

  1. Thank you for these words, Louise. They captured what I have been feeling. The need to take time to grieve, which is often so uncomfortable a place to be that we try to move away from it by analyzing, by prescribing, by talking. Even online, we can take the time to be present with all those suffering – and to share our sorrow.


    • Yes! It is important I believe that we take the time to grieve with those who have suffered such loss. In our sitting together, we open the door to awareness. We can take action on their behalf to surround them with love and create peace in our world.


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    • It is terrible Joanne — and when we see together the tragedy of what happened, we see the possibility of what we can do to prevent it happening when we stand shoulder to shoulder in peace and love. Hugs


  3. “to not let anger take hold. To not let hatred grow. To not let fear consume me.” This is sometimes so difficult to do. Thank you for the timely reminder, it is a vow we all need to make, now more than ever.


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  5. It is horrible. I hurt for those kids parents and I hurt for the kids who were so frightened. I know how it feels as i had the gun pointed at me more than once. In just few seconds, your life change.


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    • Thank you Ian — I listened to an interview on CBC this morning — and was inspired by the words of Craig Scott — a Columbine survivor. We need more compassion, connection understanding in our world. Hugs


  7. “I pray that we let go of anger, hatred and fear” …………but may enough anger and fear remain to make the changes required to ensure this sort of incident never happens again. After similar incidences in both Scotland and Australia in 1996, though the community grieved, enough anger remained to pressure the government to enact laws to prevent individuals carrying assault weapons. Gun related deaths have dropped as a result and current statistics are that gun-related deaths per head of population are approximately in Australia one-tenth and in UK one-fortieth than they are in America. May President Obama, with the whole community behind him, have the courage to do the same for America.


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