Several years ago, I took a course in which course moderator and Abbess of Abbey of the Arts, Christine Valters Paintner, asked, “What if I truly believed the path before me was blessed?”
And the muse within me answered without hesitation — There would be no misstep. I would trust in this moment right now. I would believe in the beauty of this moment right now and see the perfection of each step, in darkness and light.
It was a scary thought. To hold true that each step before me is blessed. For, if I truly believed each step before me is blessed, I would dance in the light of Love. I would sing loud. I would laugh and spin about. I would embrace fearlessness in each step.
I would not fear falling.
My mind is telling me, the path feels busy right now. My plate full. Work is ramping up after not slowing down very much since the crazy busyness of the holiday season. I’ve had a mouse visiting my desk at work, leave evidence of his antics on its surface. (that’s a whole over drama!)
The renovations on our new home continue with decisions to be made, things to be bought and new completion dates adjusted. We are still in temporary quarters. My eldest daughter is entering the final months of her pregnancy and I shall become a grandmother soon.
So much to do. So many ways to be present. How will I manage?
When I let go of focusing on ‘how much there is to do’ or worrying about the ways in which I am being present and instead, breathe into knowing the path before me is blessed, I move from panic mode thinking (how on earth am I going to get it all done?) to realization that what will be will be. Doing what needs to be done is important. Knowing that no matter how I do whatever I do, the path before me is blessed, opens me up to grace. In grace, there is no anxiety. No worry. No fear.
I can stress out over what needs to get done. Or, I can choose to breathe calmly into doing what needs to get done without judging the quantity of time and energy available as lacking in ‘enough’. When I move from lack to abundance, to gratitude for the blessed path before me, I become conscious of my ‘being’ rather than ‘doing’.
In that realization, I find myself remembering to sink back into that place where I know, deep within me, that all my seeking to get stuff done without staying conscious of my being present, is just a way to keep myself busy from being present.
And without presence, I spin like a hamster in a wheel, giving no thought to the present moment in which I am given the gift to not just do, but also BE.
When I let go of worrying and fearing the path before me, I open my heart, my mind and my soul to being conscious of being present to trusting the path before me.
And when I trust in the blessed path before me, I become all that I am in this moment – no matter how often my mind is telling me, the path is unsafe. The world is spinning out of control. Hunker down. Get ‘er done. Don’t let go….
The path before me is blessed. I trust in this moment right now and step fearlessly onto the path.
And with each step, wonder and awe awaken and miracles shimmer all around.