We are all born magnificent. It is imprinted in our DNA at the moment of conception.
It is imprinted in our soul, or DNA, genetic blueprint, core essence this Divine Expression of Amazing Grace that is within each of us. We can call it placed there by God, Yaweh, Allah. It is not the word we use to name this Divine Essence of our being human that matters. What matters is we awaken to its presence.
And that’s the challenge Life can be hard. In its unfolding we forget the magnificence at our core very early on in our journey. As lie happens, we adapt to its happenings, layering over our magnificence with pain and anger, sorrow and regret and a host of our human mal-adaptations that we carry with us to protect our ego and its constant need for reassurance. In the process, our magnificence becomes a tiny seed of memory, always present, always with us. Not always seen or known or remembered.
As we grow and age, we remember something is missing. We carry a sense of loss, of curiosity that maybe there’s more to this life than just ‘the daily grind’. This making a living day-to-day, of getting by.
In his newsletter today, theologian and philosopher, Richard Rohr calls it “The Further Journey”. It is the journey into the second half of our lives that always awaits us, though some of us may never take it. Not because we don’t get old enough to enter ‘the second half of our lives’, but rather, because we get stuck in the identity growing and boundary establishing that occupies the first half. Stuck in ‘me’, we never awaken to the magnificence, or divine spark, at the core of our human presence to realize awakening is necessary. It is an integral part of our human journey.
My awakening happened gradually. In my twenties, I could not understand why I felt like I never fit into my family. They did a few things, all unintentional, to reinforce my sense of unease within their midst, which lead me to question, “Who am I?” early on.
Who am I, I discovered, isn’t about the things I own or do, it’s about who am I when I am being my most magnificent self. When I am being of service to the world.
For me, creating things of beauty and wonder, creating a sense of welcome and peace is critical to my nature.
For you, it may be something else.
Whatever ‘it’ is, your ‘who am I’ will resonate at a deep soul level and express itself in a way that is unique to only you. In the presence of its truth, you will feel so light of heart, you might feel like your entire being is dancing in the light of love.
Answering ‘Who am I?’ is a lifetime journey of unfolding and discovery. Of turning back into yourself again and again, letting go of self-judgement and criticism to realize, Who am I is the beginning of a wondrous journey into self-forgiveness, acceptance, understanding and Love.
For today, stand in front of a mirror, look deep into your eyes and ask yourself, ‘Who am I?’.
Keep your heart soft, your mind open, your senses awakened to whatever rises up from deep within you.
Let go of judgement. Let go of self-consciousness and that fuzzy little flurry of embarrassment that wants to burble up and make you laugh uncomfortably.
Just stay present. Ask the question. Listen deeply.
The answer may surprise you.
The answer may confuse or excite you.
And always, the answer will be fascinating. Because, beneath all the stuff of life, is the answer you were born to know and breathe life into: You are magnificent. The Divine Expression of Amazing Grace.
I cannot thank you enough for this invigorating post, Louise. I want to turn my grief into something positive so here goes!
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Sending you love and light dear Jules. Your comment makes me wonder if grief, by its very nature, is ‘something positive’ in that it gives us safe and courageous space to feel the loss of those we love. Hugs my friend.
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