The Fall. Ouch!

I fell a couple of weeks ago. I was in the kitchen at work and slipped on a piece of cucumber I hadn’t noticed lying on the floor.

It was a textbook, slapstick-style movie fall. Both feet went flying up from beneath me and I landed hard, my body sprawled out like a starfish on the beach. The resounding crash of my landing brought my co-workers running to the kitchen door.

Naturally, I tried to pretend it was nothing. That I wasn’t hurt.

Needless to say, my body was not happy — with my attitude nor the fall.

I’ve been going for treatment, ice, heat, creams, taking it easy. Not lifting things. You know, playing the princess prima donna. But in truth, I really messed up my left side so if I want to heal, I need to heed the doctor’s advice. Take it easy.

And I was. Until Saturday that is.

I was at an event where dancing is the order of business.

I love to dance. Love it.

My challenge is, when the music starts, I lose all sense and sensibility. I forget how my body feels and let the music take me where ever it wants to go.

OnΒ  Saturday, it took me.

And now my body is saying, it took you too far.

Okay. Okay. Being 100% accountable for my actions means I can’t lay the blame on my body. I let it happen. And whining isn’t going to change any of that, nor is blaming it on the music!

Whining is not the point of writing this out anyway. It’s about finding the value in all things, looking for the gift in the mud, seeing the beauty in the darkness.

And that’s where I’m struggling. To find lightness of being when my body feels like it was hit by a truck. To remember, this too shall pass and I shall once again not feel like an old lady with arthritic bones.

Oh wait. I am edging closer to being an old lady than a lithe young thing. And I do have arthritis!

Maybe the point of this is to find the grace that resides within, no matter my body’s age, and to let the joy of being who I am supersede the way I feel right now.

To acknowledge dancing like no one is watching doesn’t mean dancing by letting it all hang out. It means, learning to heed my body’s signals of when it’s appropriate to let go of every joint, muscle, and inhibition when I dance. And when it’s not.

It means letting the music have its way with my senses, not my sensibilities.

Perhaps the point is, I love to dance, but just as I no longer jog, maybe it’s time to curb the free stylin’ and become a little more in tune with not just the music, but my body too.

Because believe me, falling has jaundiced my outlook and my back being out of sorts has cramped my style! And it’s definitely given me pause for reflection, to stop and think about the things I’m doing that do not create ‘the more’ of what I want in my life.

Fact is, I’ve never really treated my body like a temple. I’ve never considered its needs before my desire to go places, get things done, feel free of constraints.

Perhaps, it’s time to grow up and tune into the music within so that the music around me doesn’t carry me away from all sense and sensibility!





16 thoughts on “The Fall. Ouch!

  1. We, the invincible women, just cannot accept that we can be fragile. Suck it up Chiquita, take some much needed downtime and allow the body to heal. You may be surprised on the outcome – some quality time to think, reflect and create anew.

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  2. The hardest part of getting older, is admitting it. I am horrid at taking it easy, always have been. But there are times you simply don’t have a choice. Feel better fast…..and sit down!

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  3. and THIS is why avoid dancing! On the other hand, as our bodies age/decline, I think the best thing we can do for ourselves is to test and push ourselves to do more, not less, to push ourselves to keep up the exercise/fitness pursuits. So what if we slip and fall or scrape our shins … we’ll be in a far better place than if we sit on the sidelines. So, get a walker and keep dancing. Jog or walk on a treadmill.

    AND, since you are playing the invalid a bit … get writing!

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    • Oh my! In my worldview, one should never avoid dancing! πŸ™‚ It’s worth the pain. Almost. πŸ™‚ And yes, there is pushing ourselves, and there is doing nothing. Great thoughts Mark. Thanks.


  4. Completely identify with this blog. I sprained my ankle before coming to Mexico, in the midst of selling house and all my stuff, in the midst of needing to be productive, effective and manic. Gave it three days. It took 2 months and several trips to a chiropractor to repair the damage of walking around limping and throwing everything else out of place. Be as kind to yourself as you are to everyone else. And keep dancing! I do the same thing when the music starts. However, I do try to limit the number of songs I’ll be crazy to. πŸ˜‰

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  5. It is definitely not easy to give in to one’s physical limitations. I always used to dance in the kitchen, alone, while cooking and baking. Since I’m no longer able to do much of either I still try to move and grove ever so gently whenever the spirit moves me. Finding the right balance is key but very difficult. I’m so sorry you are hurting and hope that your healing is swift and easy. As your eldest sister I could give you lessons on taking it easy (not really as I still haven’t got the hang of it!). Be well ma soeur, much Love, Jackie

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  6. For individuals of our spiritual makeup, often it is that we learn those lessons last which the more average hominid tends to have down by the age of five: I have a right to exist. My feelings are valid. I get to rest. Sometimes I get carried away and overdo things. It’s okay — imagine if I were the kind of person who never did!

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