I am entering my 9th to last working day before I leave ‘the workforce’ on May 31st.
Things I notice… I feel less stressed around the daily workings of the organization. That could be because the new ED is handling it all. What is refreshing is I don’t feel any angst about not being involved in it all.
I am sleeping better.
I don’t check my emails continuously and when a staff member notifies the leadership team of something that transpired, I don’t immediately check the logs.
I am not missing being ‘the one in charge’.
I’m not missing having to make decisions.
And, I’m not feeling any regret, or fear, or concern.
All is as it should be. I am releasing.
On the weekend at my art show, several friends dropped by and inevitably someone would ask, “So… how are you feeling scared about retiring?”
My answer was always, “I’m feeling excited about my rejuvenation!”
And I am. Excited. Curious. Open.
On the weekend, someone also asked me if I would be participating in any more art shows in the fall. I haven’t got any booked, I replied, but I’ll have the time to research which ones I want to be in and to apply!
Now that’s exciting.
The art show went well. It was slow vis à vis attendees, but I still did well. My cards were a big hit as were the alochol inks. Lots of lovely affirmation from people, friends and strangers, that the work is pleasing. Exciting.
Lots of people were curious about the process. It’s probably the piece I enjoy the most. Inspiring people to try it. To play. To release fear and dive into exploration of their creativity.
I also had a number of people ask me if I would be giving courses. The answer is yes. And while I’m focussing on going the summer without ‘a plan’ or making plans for the fall, I have decided I will be launching a workshop series this fall.
I’m calling it, “The Wise Woman Workshop Series”. Recovering your magnificence through art and play.
I have a vision. An idea. A sense of how I want the workshop series to feel. Now, I just have to create the lesson plans, or as so often happens for me, allow the muse to flow freely so that the plans create themselves.
When I stay open, the muse flows joyfully.
Years ago, when I resigned my position as Director Communications at an adult homeless shelter, I took four months to simply be present in the now, to catch my breath and to heal some of the broken places within. One day I started writing a workbook on the power of poetry to heal. Three weeks later I had an entire 21 lesson workbook completed, “Right Your Heart Out”. I had no idea that process was within me. I have no real memory of making a decision to write it, or even where the thoughts came from that created the exercises in that book. Truly, it was the muse having her way with me.
And that’s what excites me the most. Creating space for the muse and me to dance the eternal dance of exploration, inspiration and creativity.
As my eldest daughter said to me on the phone last night, “Art is the language of the soul.”
I’m excited to immerse myself in soul dancing and setting my dreams on fire.