In my post yesterday on A Grandmother’s Code, I mentioned in one of my comments that I was feeling unsettled without access to my studio.
It was packed up on December 12th and is not likely to get set up again for at least a couple of more months. We are still in the throes of renovating our new home, and my studio will be the last piece in the puzzle of putting our home together.
As I lay in bed this morning thinking about not having a place to create with abandon (because that’s what the studio gives me — a place to paint without worrying about splashing, spills or slip-ups), I realized I need to come up with an alternative plan. A way to create without a studio.
People do it all the time. What am I waiting for?
Fundamentally, my studio represents more than a creating space. It is my home base. My sanctuary. My centering place.
Without it, I have been letting myself off the hook of being committed to my practice of centering, meditating and finding balance.
I have been slacking off.
And that’s not good for me.
Even my meditation practice has been impacted by this move. I am erratic in creating space for meditation and even when I do, I find myself wandering both mentally and physically.
All of which are signs of my inner imbalance.
Moving is not easy. And when the move takes three months, it becomes more about learning to live in transition than just being in transition.
I have not done a great job of learning to live in this new order of things. No matter how transitory, I am in it and need to be conscious of how I go through it.
So, today, I commit to starting a new awareness for myself of what it means to live in transition — while keeping myself balanced and centered with grace and ease.
To begin, I created a ‘path’ for myself to ensure I give myself room for assessment, alignment and action. My steps, as they currently appear in first blush are:
- Be conscious of where I’m at — physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually.
- Make an assessment of my ‘Balance wheel’.
- Decide on the priority areas to address.
- Make a commitment to do 1 – 3 things within each area to bring myself back into balance.
- Identify the 1 – 3 things for each.
- Commit to beginning and when necessary, begin again.
- Be gentle with myself.
It’s a new beginning, a new space, a new attitude.
I wonder what I can create?