In the snow below our upper deck, animal prints trail through the no longer pristine blanket covering the earth. Signs of this January melt that arrived on a gust of wind sweeping down from the Rockies, lie scattered across mother earth.
Once snow-laden branches stretch out bar arms entwining one another in a silent dance of hope. Has winter gone? Is it time to get our juices flowing in anticipation of lengthening days beneath a welcoming sun? Is it time for spring?
Not yet cry out the geese, the ones who did not fly south and sit huddled up on icy banks along the river, squawking and honking in the morning light. Not yet.
Winter is not yet done.
This interlude of almost spring will not last.
And I spy my winter boots laying in the corner of the closet, my big puffy down-filled parka hanging above.
I want to leave them there. To let the sit forlorn and forgotten. To hide them away like Christmas cookies stored in tight containers in the freezer to keep me from indulging in what I do not need.
I want to indulge in these warmer days. To walk outside unencumbered by bulky clothing whose only purpose is to protect me from frostbite and cold toes and fingers.
I want to run free.
Be patient, honk the geese.
Winter will swoop in again. It is too soon for spring.
And so, I leave my parka hanging in plain view, my giant clunky fleece-lined boots lined up beneath them as if waiting for me to step into them again and take them for a walk in frosty temps and frigid air.
I leave my basket of heavy mittens and hats and scarves by the door, along with Beaumont the Sheepadoodles booties which he detests but is forced to wear when the temperature drops to Arctic zones.
I leave it all handy because like the geese who webbed feet paddle furiously beneath the rushing waters of the one thread of river that remains unfrozen, spring has not yet sprung. It is too soon.
But oh how I wish it had.
Oh how I wish I did not have to be patient.
But all my wishing and hoping will not change the course of the seasons here at the windward base of the Rockies.
All my dreaming of spring will not force winter to disappear like a distant memory grown too cold too remember.
All I can do is savour this interlude of spring-like weather and bathe in the gratitude that comes with knowing with every day that passes, winter’s return will not be as long now that its stay has been broken.
A NOTE ABOUT THIS POST
So…. I wrote my post in Word first this morning — it was a morning pages kind of exercise for free-fall writing. The purpose is to write without focusing on ‘the purpose’ but rather just the process of trusting in the process of letting whatever is seeking to appear, ‘fall out’.
I copied it and then got distracted and forgot to paste it in here before copying something else.
Oh no! I had forgotten to save it in Word and thought it was lost.
I have used a computer for decades – Word in particular. And in all that time, I was never sure how to find my ‘Clipboard’ other than the last saved item.
This morning, I learned something new!
wish I’d known it in December when I realized I’d inadvertently not saved the minutes for a board meeting for which I act as Secretary. (Until next week that is when I new secretary takes over and I step into the role of Vice-Chair – I’m pretty sure they’ll be happy to have me relinquish the role! 🙂 )
In the meantime, I am grateful to have discovered how to find my clipboard and retrieve things I copied after all this time! What a treat!