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Safe in this moment of possibility

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Walking into the studio to simply be present in its space has been a challenge for me this past week.

Fall has settled in and I have been building a nest to hibernate within, letting go of the possibilities of what comes next.

I resist that walk. I hesitate, tell myself I have other things to do, I’m too tired, too edgy, too anything other than present.

I lose myself into a novel. Turn on the television. Convince myself it’s okay to resist and tumble into that rebellious state where doing what is good for me, what is nurturing and supportive falls short of my conscious decision to not do what I know feeds my spirit.

I have been here before, in this space of rebellious resistance to the things that bring me pleasure, joy, peace, contentment. This place where I resist what opens my heart wide, sets it to beating fearlessly as I move into the flow of creativity coursing through my veins.

I am in my head. Walled up in rebellious denial of my power to walk through the barriers I have placed to keep me out of the heart-space of creativity where I am free to flow in all directions without needing a map, a guidebook, a plan.

In this space I ask myself questions that don’t have answers. They just have rabbit holes down which I slide into perpetual cycling in and out of rationalizing my state of being.

There is only one way to stop spiralling into resistance. Breathe and allow.

Breathe and allow.

Allow what is present without judging it or believing it will be forever.

Now is not forever.

And in the now that is not forever, I find the grace to allow myself to shift from inaction into action.

To turn away from the voice of resistance I must breathe and allow myself the sacred connectedness of sitting in front of a blank page, a white canvas and being present to my fear that what I create is not good enough or not right or that the timing is wrong, that I am not meant to create, or that I am too small to change, or too weak to deal with this state I am in.

There is no right or wrong or enough in creativity and I am never too small, to weak, to nothing. I am all that I am and there is only the act of creating exactly where I am at.  There is only the act of casting words upon a page or throwing paint at a surface upon which I have already begun to tell its story if only to change the story that was present when I walked away from the space of believing in all things are possible.

It is sacred ground this creative space. And I have been holding onto the fear I will fall if I believe in it.

I breathe and allow.

Now is not forever and in this not forever place I let go of my fear of being stuck, of falling and of flying.

I breathe and lovingly acknowledge I have moved away, changed, shifted and am holding onto the fear that nothing is possible. In the nothingness of standing in fear with my eyes closed, I cannot see the light shining.

It is in the fearlessness of those moments, those tender, fragile moments where I fear what might be revealing itself upon the canvas or the page that I must let go of my fear and simply stand confidently and unafraid and do that which I fear the most — trust.

Trust in myself. Trust in being present. Trust in the muse, in creativity, the Universe.

When I trust in what is, in where I am, no matter where I am standing, Love is with me, creativity abounds and possibilities open up in endless gratitude for my being present to each moment unfolding.

I have been amusing myself in the land of darkness. It is time to open my eyes and breathe into my fear. It is time to allow possibility, creativity, hope and joy to surface. It is time to let go and trust, no matter what appears, I am safe in this moment of possibility.

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Author: Louise Gallagher

I believe we each have the capacity to be the change we want to see in the world, to make a world of difference. I believe we are creative beings on the journey of our lifetimes. It's up to each of us to Live It Up and SHINE!

10 thoughts on “Safe in this moment of possibility

  1. LG,

    I think you are missing something very obvious.

    Go for a walk with your dog.

    Ellie may be gone – so you can walk with her memory (or get a pup!) … but that daily routine of dog-walking was part of your daily creative process too, was it not?

    Go for a walk, with or without a pooch, to re-establish that important habit. The exercise won’t hurt either.

    Go walk ..

    Go.

    Now.

    Cheers,

    Mark

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  2. Everything is as it should be. The head space, your break in creativity, and this important pause for reflection. Each piece is a part of the gear that will move you forward. My gears have slowed down at this time too. I’m journaling a lot more….posting a lot less.

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  3. Some moments of possibility are essential from time to time to sit, to ponder, to give yourself the much needed space and rest, to recharge, to reassure that all is well and there will be another day, a brighter one, more inspiring, more welcoming when our feet will feel full of energy! Love your candid confessions, Louise!

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  4. I do that too — reading, watching TV, procrastinating. I’ve found that sometimes it’s me sabotaging myself. But sometimes it’s a wiser me, trying to tell me that it isn’t the moment for that project or that i need to rest or ??? I find the big challenge has become deciding which it is. When it’s sabotage, I’m going to remember your suggestion of breathing, letting go and trusting. Thanks.

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  5. ” I have been amusing myself in the land of darkness”
    I know exactly what you mean 🙂

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