I went to the river yesterday. I went to visit the place where the 2 heart rocks we laid last summer for Ellie The Wonder Pooch are tucked into the trees.
I wanted to tell her about Beaumont. About his arrival next week into our home and how he has already taken up residence in my heart.
I wanted to let her know it was okay. That my heart has room for only love and she is always a loving presence in my heart.
Ellie. Life. The Universe. Maybe just summer and its tangled overgrowth, had a different idea.
I could not find her rocks. I’d found them just last month on a walk along the river. I knew they were there. But I could not find them.
Oh that trickster Ellie. That wonderful, loving, caring girl. As always, she wanted to make it easy for me. She wanted to let me know, “It’s okay.” She’s not worried about Beaumont’s presence in our home and hearts. She knows there’s always room for Love.
When I was at the river, I hadn’t really thought about the date. Hadn’t noticed that tomorrow, June 23rd, is the day she left us last year.
The serendipity and the mystery of it all is astounding to me.
In my post last year about Ellie’s passing, Jodi Aman wrote, “Thank you Ellie! You were a guide in this life, but now it’s time for you to guide from the other side. Still connected, but even more powerfully!”
Is this part of the mystery of life? That when we leave this place we have the capacity to guide, even more powerfully, from the other side?
Life is a powerful and mysterious journey.
Yesterday, walking by the river, through the woods, sitting listening to the gurgling of the water as it flowed past, I was immersed in the awe and the beauty of that moment in time, that place on earth.
I felt the spirit of Ellie splashing in the water. Felt her warm, wet body leaning into mine.
I felt a part of something bigger, more grand, more spectacular than anything I could ever imagine.
I felt part of life.
Being all around me and within and part of me.
I felt in the flow. In the moment. In the place where I sat.
I felt at peace.
At One with the mystery and beauty and wonder of life flowing all around.
The mystery of life is not that we live and then we die. It is that we are born.
That from one natural act, one sperm survives its journey to unite with one egg to become the uniqueness, and the sameness of each and every one of us. That from that one act, we are created and emerge into this world through the gift and mystery of life becoming matter.
It is that a seed falls into the ground and a flower grows. A sapling becomes a tree. A blade of grass becomes a field of grasses waving in the sun. That a bird flies, a cow moos, a rooster crows.
It is that a river flows past until it reaches the sea. That nature abounds with bounty. That life creates itself again and again and again.
There is so much I do not know, do not understand, do not comprehend in this world. There is war and death and dying and man hurting one another, killing one another, destroying one another, and still, life keeps creating. Re-inventing itself, again and again and again.
And in that creation is the hope, the faith, the knowing that to create is to give birth to the possibility of Love overcoming hatred, fear, discrimination, self-loathing.
In life creating itself again and again is the knowing that until we find ourselves at peace, sitting by a river, or just sitting beside one another where ever we are at and loving one another exactly how we are, life will keep creating itself again and again and again.
That’s the true mystery. We keep creating life even in the midst of all the turmoil, angst, war and hatred that abounds on this place called earth.
And in the midst of it all, that a wonder pooch knows better than me when it’s time to let go, time to move on, time to create again a place in my heart and hearth where a four legged friend can roam and show me the way to be at peace in a world that sometimes feels like it’s gone mad, and still, always has room for Love.
In the presence of Love, the wonder pooch once again teaches me to be at peace no matter where I am in the world, no matter how fierce the winds or hot the sun. To be at peace and know it is only when I am at peace I create peace all around me.
Elizabeth at Almost Spring invited me to take up the challenge of posting a photo a day and writing a story/article about a word related to the photo.
I took the photo above on the ridge above the river yesterday. I was enchanted by the wisps of the seed pods, the delicate tendrils of its feathering strands protecting the bud.
This post is also my first exploration into the word ‘mystery’. A month ago, I made a decision to explore what I don’t know about surrender, hope, faith, mystery, loss, God, and the power of love. To seek the unknown is to journey into what I know and allow space for ‘what else’ to appear. It is to live within the question, not knowing or needing the answer.
This is the first post of five on ‘mystery’. I’m curious to see what will emerge.