The card is named, “Powerful Changes”.
I feel my body’s visceral response to the words. ‘Change? What change?’ my critter mind wails. “Enough already with the changes! Haven’t I done enough? ”
I want to know the changes, as if in the knowing, I can vet them, or at least measure them against my barometer of what is acceptable change. And what is not.
“When we open ourselves to exploring our creativity, we open ourselves to God: good orderly direction.
As we open our creative channel to the Creator, many gentle but powerful changes are to be expected.”
I am like the river flowing to the sea, my course defined by two parallel shores guiding me, channeling me.
My creative essence is not be channeled.
When I open my creative channel to the Creator, I drift quietly away from the need to be safely channeled by the shores of my being who I think I am in this world and the life I lead. Open to my creative channel, I release my expectations that my course is predictable, known, somehow able to be directed and determined by me.
In the absence of needing to direct or be held in by the bounds of what I deem the shores and boundaries of my life, I am free to explore where ever my creativity leads me.
I am free to be my creative essence. Open to powerful changes whether they enter gently or roar in like an arctic wind.
I want to control change. To harness it to my directions.
I cannot harness the wind. I cannot change the weather.
I surrender my need to control and give into my creative essence and its deep desire to be known simply as it is.
In that knowing, I am not bound by the shores of who I am. In that powerful change of how I see myself and my creativity, I am free to become all I am when I let go of being my creative expression and become the expression of my creative essence running wild and free.
Free-fall writing from today’s The Artist’s Way Card by Julia Cameron — Powerful Changes
Without thinking about it, as I wrote, my word for 2019 became clearer. “Surrender” That is a powerful change from my thinking that I needed to consciously focus on my word for the year.