I didn’t do it.
No excuses. No reason why not (well actually I have a lot of those but you don’t really want to hear them). The fact is, I did not reach the 50,000 word target of the NaMoWriNo.
And I’m okay.
When the time is right the writing will be written, I shall continue on.
At this moment in time, I am having way too much fun in my studio, creating a new platform on my website for creative offerings and developing courseware that expresses my life focus of being a Creativity Activist. Oh. And I’ve got Christmas gifts to craft for this year.
If I were really committed to the writing, it would happen. And it’s just not happening write now.
Isn’t that the way of life? We think about the things we’d like to do, and then don’t get to them. Sometimes it’s a conscious decision not to. Sometimes, it’s procrastination. Sometimes, competing priorities or different ones take centre stage. And then, there’s just the good ole’ filling time with other busyness.
Whatever the reason, not doing it is information that can create light in our life or heavy spaces.
In the past, in not reaching a target I might have wasted time chastising myself, beating myself up for what I deemed ‘falling down’. It never really helped. What it did do was create that heaviness of being that nullifies and defies my peace of mind.
Enough is enough.
I don’t need to chastise myself. I have to either get on with completing whatever it was I was doing, or, decide to be okay with not doing it.
In the ‘being okay with not doing’ I can choose to create space for self-compassion and self-acceptance.
I didn’t reach the NaMoWriNo word target.
I did sign-up. I did complete my outline and chapter synopses. I did a bunch of research on an area of the novel that I need to understand to write about it. I did start writing. And that’s a big deal. Those are positive steps.
Time to celebrate the steps taken.
Time to acknowledge I’m exactly where I am. Life is exactly what it is in this moment right now.
And then… it’s back to the studio I go to play and create.
I’ve been creating more Christmas balls with clear glass balls and alcohol ink and glitter. I do love sparkly things! Did I mention how much fun I’m having?