When I sat down at my studio worktable yesterday morning, there was one phrase that kept drifting through my mind, “And her prayers became the song the night sang to sing the stars awake.”
I pulled out the altered book journal I’ve been working on with my mother’s prayer cards and gave myself over to the muse.
It did not start out well…
You know how you can be working on something and think, “hmmmm…. It’s okay but I’m not really sure what I’m doing here…”
My first instinct is to quit. To paint over. To tear it up.
My deeper knowing is to keep deliving into it. To allow myself to work through the ‘yucky’ to get to whatever is looking to be expressed.
When I do that, it happens. Like magic. There’s this moment where I feel so connected and so immersed in it all that my heart sings and my soul dances and my body sinks deeply into gratitude.
Yeah? Well, yesterday, that happened.
There I was, feeling stuck and blah when without thought, I felt my entire being sink effortlessly into that place. Breathing deeply, I felt the silence expand between my heart beat’s steady tattoo as my soul seemed to hang suspended in time. I felt as though I was floating in harmony with the universe and all of life surrounding me. My senses awoke to the moment and I sighed and whispered to the sun and the clear blue sky and the breeze drifting by as the leaves whispered their incantations of love and ease and bliss, “Ohh. I see you. I feel you. I know you. Here I am.”
And in that moment I felt the breath of my mother’s prayers wrap me in their sweet tender embrace and the world felt oh so precious, oh so sacred, oh so new and fresh. And I felt embodied in the present moment, connected, in partnership, part of and all of the trees and the leaves, the breeze and the sky, the river floating by, the chickadee perched on the birdfeeder and the squirrel spinning in acrobatic grace through the branches of the trees.
In that moment, I was embodied in ‘the now’. At one. Complete. Part of. All of. Connected. Whole.
“And her prayers became the song the night sang to sing the stars awake.”
And then, later in the afternoon, my dear friend Jane came over to paint outside. And it happened again. I was one with the embodied present. Whole. Complete. Filled with a sense of harmony and peace.
That’s what creating is — it’s not about outcome, or style, or technique or saleability.
It’s about being present within the journey of creating. Being connected and whole.
And it’s about community.
Both these pages were created as part of two different courses I’m taking. When I shared the spread from My Mother’s Prayers on my Instagram yesterday, an artist friend wrote back,
“My spiritual community both soothes my soul and lights new fires.” Tracy Brown
“I put my Instagram artist friends in this category”, she said.
Being present is about connection, community, coherence.
Thank you for being part of my community. For taking this journey with me. For illuminating my path with your light and making it easier to see in the dark.
I am grateful.