as Soft As A Petal Falling

Altered Book Art Journal page — “My Mother’s Prayers” – ‘Soft as Petals’ “As soft as an angel’s kiss, her prayers fell like petals from the heaven’s above blessing everyone on earth.”

For the past three days I’ve been working on a video of my creative process. I filmed myself working on another page from the altered book journal I’ve been creating of my mother’s prayer cards, and have been editing and editing and editing…

It is a good stretch for my brain and a good reminder of how the creative process is not just founded in ‘art-making’, it is everywhere! I have to keep reminding myself that creating a video is in and of itself a creative process. Rather than thinking it’s taking me away from time in the studio, I am focussing on the value of learning new things and how it is expanding my capacity to evolve into new forms of creative expression!

The other day, after commenting on my Mother’s Prayer Cards art journal, someone asked if I was okay. “You seem to be grieving so deeply,” they said. “Are you okay?”

I appreciated their question and concern. It felt very loving.

The fact is, I told them in response, I feel great. Creating this journal of mom’s prayer cards, immersing myself in an exploration of the power of prayer and memory has been a very healing, loving journey. It has expanded my compassion for my relationship with my mother and deepened my knowing of her love. It has also given me an opportunity to heal some of the broken places of our relationship.

In the eulogy I gave for mom at her celebration of life, I wrote, “Being the youngest, I wanted to be the rebel. In fact, for a large portion of my life, I wanted to be anything but like my mother. I am so grateful that through her prayers, I have become more like her than anyone else I ever thought I wanted to be. As I sat with her in the quiet of the night over the final week of her life and prayed with her and sang to her and read to her, I realized that the gift my mother gave me was and is the one I cherish most in my life today – an unwavering belief in the transformational power of Love. “

Kindness was my mother’s North Star. No matter how unkindly I responded to her when she told me she was praying for me, she never responded in kind, she only responded in kindness.

Life is a journey. It isn’t about how fast we go on the road of life nor how long we’re on the road. It’s about how much kindness we invest into each step along our way. It’s about how much we joy we instill in each day and how deeply we fall into Love with everyone and everything on our path.

My mother would have been 98 today. In her life and in her passing, I have found myself growing deeper and deeper into Love through her prayers that continue to be a constant on my path. Thanks mom! Happy Birthday!

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About this altered book art journal page:

I started this spread knowing what the words were. They had appeared while I was in meditation before starting the page and were my guide as I created. “As soft as an angel’s kiss, her prayers fell like petals from the heaven’s above blessing everyone on earth.”

22 thoughts on “as Soft As A Petal Falling”

      1. And what a great way to treasure a book one loves for ever. To hide it like a treasure under another treasured creation.

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  1. I listened to a key note speaker a few years ago and she said “write new stories” aka live a life that changes and evolves and don’t get stuck in a rut. The video and the art challenges you and out of it your heart grows. Double win double whammy. Will watch the video later when the internet is better. I am sure I will enjoy seeing the process.

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  2. This was wonderful to read and then watch, Louise. I loved seeing your process and what a great way to use a book that you know you will never read again.
    I’m curious. Does it get too thick for its binding at one point? Do you rip out the extra pages? Leave them in? Change the book cover?
    🙂

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    1. Thanks Dale!

      And yes, it does get too thick so I do one of two things 1) glue two or three pages together before painting on them. 2) tear every other page out.

      Of course, I forgot to mention that in the video 🙂 thanks for the question I’ll remember it next time! ❤

      In earlier books I've altered I haven't always had to do that as I didn't paint so densely on all the pages.

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      1. On this one, I painted over the image on the front. It’s not the whole page, just the recessed square in the middle of the cover.
        Others I’ve left as is and some I gesso and paint. I kind of like leaving the cover intact as much as possible as it feels more intriguing to me. 🙂

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    1. Thank you so much Ian! You know that song “I have a crush on you” (is it a song or did I make that up?) — either way, when I read your blog I get this little crush on you every time. Your take on things feels like jumping into the pool at the bottom of a waterfall. Refreshing and deep.

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