In a burst of exuberance, the wind swept down from the mountains
whispering stories of faraway places.
“Runaway with me and I will show you the world!” the wind called out and Coyote laughed.
“Here is where I run free,” he told the wind. And the wind blew on and Coyote ran free.
Art Journal Entry, August 26, 2014
There was a time when she believed if she could just be somewhere else other than where she was, everything would be okay.
There was a time when she wished for nothing more than to be someone else other than who she was.
What she couldn’t see in looking for another way of being is that no matter what she wished for, she could never be anyone else other than who she was.
What she couldn’t see was that the parts of her that didn’t fit her well in this place, would not fit her any better in another.
Fearful that she would never find her way, she attempted to jettison her past, extricate herself from being herself to become someone she thought others wanted her to be. “Perhaps if you change directions, or even just your clothes, you’ll find yourself another way,” her nimble mind whispered like the wind blowing down from the mountains, calling her to run away.
And she ran, and ran and still she found herself where ever she was at, trying to run away from the one she could never leave behind, herself.
“Perhaps if you simply stand true to who you are, stay present to what is here in this moment, you’ll find yourself right where you’re at,” her loving heart whispered into the howling of the wind.
Frightened by her heart’s calling and tired of constantly running away, she fell to the ground and rested right where she was at. And in her sleep, her heart beat strong, and her mind grew restful as the truth of who she is set her free to run wild like the wind through her dreams.
“There is nothing to fear in being you,” her heart whispered. “Who you are is who you’ve always been. Perfectly human in all your human imperfections. Beauty and the beast. Loving and loved. A child of the universe, seeking her way into the light of her own brilliance shining brightly on the path of her creation.”
Like coyote and the wind, there is always a calling to venture into another space, some distant place where what is here will not be there. It isn’t until I quit searching for somewhere else to be that I discover, everything I need to be free is here right now, because, no matter where I go, I am where ever I am at.
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The painting and story above came from my meditation. Like the caterpillar story yesterday which came from a dream where I awoke with the image of the unhappy caterpillar and his desire to be anything other than himself, the image of the coyote slipped through my mind as I sat in silence.
I was seeking a peaceful mind and still the wind blew in.
I tried to push it away. Instead, it insisted on leaving its mark in the form of a coyote, the trickster of Native American lore. I asked coyote what he had to tell me, and the image and story were born.
In my practice, both here on the written page and on my art journal page, I have learned to trust in the process. To allow the words, and images, to appear without trying to discern them before they flow.
It can be challenging. I like to control. I like to dictate, to organize, to force and cajole things into being, just so. I also like to judge what I create. Measure its worth against some unseen yardstick in my mind.
Learning to trust in the process without judgement means, learning to trust in me.
A big leap.
Which is probably why, when I awoke at 3:30 this morning with the image of a cliff in my mind, the words appeared, “Leaping off the edge of what she knew to be true, she found herself believing in the possibility of flight.”
What a lovely gift to find upon awakening in the quiet hours before the dawn.
You’ve come a LONG way Louise. (me thinks)
A wonderful ‘story’ and a beautiful coyote, although I haven’t had the best impressions of them the one and only time I saw a herd of them…. But this is about you and your ‘flying off the cliff’ – and I hope that next time I absolutely cannot sleep, I’ll have a similar experience – usually in my case, it’s just stuff I should have done and a pile of notes of what I will have to do the next morning.
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Thank you Kiki — I have come a long way! 🙂 ❤
Coyotes are beautiful– we even have them in the city!
And ah yes — the sleepless listing of all the stuff I should have done… me too sometimes! 🙂
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Quiet hours speak and when we hear what they say – inspiration propels us, gives us wings and we start drifting into the unknown! Strangely we discover new paths, cliffs seem to beckon and a whole new world unfolds before us. Many times we are bewildered, wonder whether we are awake or in a dream!! I have experienced such moments. Many of my poems have been written during such moments of inspired exhilaration.
Thanks Louise, for recording such moments and sharing them.
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What a beautiful way to describe them Balroop. I am so grateful to share the quiet hours with you. Blessings.
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incredible, inspiring words, thank you x
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You are so welcome lovely Laura. Hugs
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Oh, if only I was brave enough to leap off that edge rather than gazing over it and wondering………… Letting go is the hardest thing to do.
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Perhaps in the wonderment Willow, there is space to breathe into the possibility…. 🙂 Hugs
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What an inspiration that when confronted with a cliff you don’t think of it as something you have to either climb up or jump off but rather to fly!
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LOL — well Elizabeth, once an optimist… always an optimist! 🙂
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The interplay of imagination and the subconscious creates so much magic for us!
Thank you Louise!
Val x
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And don’t you just love that magic Val? I know I do. 🙂
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I love it Louise. What imagery. Just beautiful. ❤
Diana xo
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Thank you Diana — I’m emailing you about tomorrow now. 🙂
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Thanks Mark! It is amazing to find so much light in the dark! 🙂 have a brilliant day my friend.
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LG,
Amazing – isn’t it, the brilliance of writing in the middle of the night – that’s the muse to capture!
Beautiful piece. Don’t change a comma …
Cheers,
Mark
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