I love heights. I know. I know. There are many who don’t. But I do.
I love to stand high above looking out and over the world. Buildings. Mountains. Even on the bridge looking into the river below. The higher. The better.
And here’s the deal. My challenge is, when I am standing on high, I truly believe I can fly. That I can just open my arms wide, release myself to gravity’s thrall and leap.
It’s not that I believe I have wings waiting to unfurl, it’s more a feeling that somehow, through alchemy and magic, my body will be transformed into a beautiful, light as air, ‘thing’ of majestic, airborne wonder.
I didn’t say it made sense. I only said I believe it’s true.
I have not tested my premise. Ever.
Though I have been tempted.
When I used to climb mountains it was always my challenge – to stay grounded at the edge of the peak and not let go and leap. Though there was one time on a descent that began with a 2ft wide ridge walk with a 3,000 ft drop straight down on one side and about a 1,000-foot drop on the other. That day, about halfway to the point where we would be rappelling down the mountainside, I wished there was a helicopter that would come and pick me up so I wouldn’t have to leap a one-foot gap in the rock and land four feet below.
Fear made me forget I could fly or even jump as if it was a gap in the sidewalk. I had to let go of my fear
Which is the impetus for the art journal I’m creating, Learning to Fly.
In life, flying is not about heights or wings. It’s about overcoming fears that keep us tethered to our comfort zones, to dreamless-sleep-walking through our days and spiritless wanderings through time, feeding ourselves on inertia.
I have some big dreams. Had them for awhile. And still, I hesitate. I act on them. One tentative step at a time. And then, I hesitate. Holding back. Jerking forward.
No one is holding me back. Except me.
So…. I decided to focus on the things I can do, need to do, must do to unfurl my dreams.
The “Learning to Fly” art journal is my Declaration of Independence. My Magna Carta. My Holy Grail of Getting Sh*t Done.
So…. here we go….
About the Journal:
Using various papers from watercolour to mixed media to newsprint and scraps from junk mail, I gessoed and painted backgrounds to create a 40-page journal with cover. I then bound it all together into a book. (Below is a 19 second flip through of the painted and bound journal before I painted the cover and the first 4 spreads)
As well, I’ve created a list of 20 ‘actions and attitudes’ on the theme of “Learning to Fly”. For each one, I’m writing a one-line quote and using that action or attitude as the inspiration for the spread.
Over the past few days, I painted the cover (birds in a tree in gold), the title page and worked on the first 4 spreads:
- Take the longview. Even a bird needs time to grow into its wings.
- It’s a long and winding road. Every step makes a difference. Keep going.
- Wherever you grow, let your heart grow wild and free.
- Wherever you go, go with all your heart.
Colour me excited, but I feel the energy flowing, I feel my heart pounding as I work on this journal.
And, as I step through each of the 20 Action and Attitude steps I’ve created, I feel myself expanding my wings.
I won’t be jumping off mountain tops but I will be diving into making dreams come true and soaring on the wings of creative expression!
I hope you join me on the journey — I’ll be sharing my 20 Actions and Attitudes tomororw.
Today… I’ve got a dream come true to fulfill. C.C. and I are getting our first vaccinations. I’m trying not to make it a ‘big deal’.
But… it is! 🙂