The wind is blowing fierce today dragging the temperature down in its wake.
Standing on the rocky shoreline, salt spray washing my face, I feel the presence of my sister’s absense.
She would have loved it here.
Drowning in a sudden remembering of all that was lost those many months ago, the muse whispers, “Write it out.”
And so I do.
How's life, or death, on the other side? by Louise Gallagher
These moments slip in silent, stealthy, unbidden nudges awakening memory rushes into the gaping gash of my mind grown numb in the absence of your soft voice.
It’s hard learning to inhabit life since you left in the early hours of a harsh November morning closing in on two years ago when it was so easy to believe you wanted to stay as much as we didn’t want you to leave. I want to tell you this.
And I want to ask How are you? How’s life or is it death over there on the other side of the here and now where I feel the loss of each day without your presence reminding me to send that birthday card to our middle sister, clear my fridge of unidentifiable blooms, clean the oven of greasy grime and dust the shelves I cannot see because I am the short one who didn’t look up to see how hard this life had become for you to live another day beyond the last.
Spring air dancing redolent with cherry blossoms bursting scented dogwood shedding winter’s coat disarming my nostrils inhaling sweet, tender freshness of earth ripening rich and lush under rain and sun becoming fertile ground for summer’s future bounty satiating me senseless amidst lavender magnolia hyacinth overpowering my scent-clogged senses weeping with Spring blossoming beauty releasing winter’s grip spinning a Satyr’s ode to joy amidst wildflowers calling me to dance wild and free.
April is Poetry Month, and while my intention was to write a poem a day, life had other plans! Still, as they say, better late than never.
One poet who consistently captivates me is Mary Oliver. The depth and richness of her writing, her ability to conjure vivid images with such sparse, carefully chosen words, always leaves me in awe.
Her poem, “Have You Ever Tried to Enter the Long Black Branches?”, poses a question that resonates deeply: “Listen, are you breathing, just a little, and calling it a life?”
Thanks to Ali Grimshaw’s Writing Circle, I now use an exercise to deeply connect with poetry: read a poem aloud twice, then write. The initial reading is about experiencing the flow of the words. The second is a deliberate listen for resonating words and ideas that inspire your own writing. (To do this solo, I record my reading, allowing for a focused, eyes-closed second listen to identify calling words and images, which I then underline as my inspiration.)
“Yes Mary Oliver, I am Breathing” is my response, my riff, to the powerful inquiry from Mary’s poem and the question, “Listen, are you breathing, just a little, and calling it a life?”
Yes Mary Oliver, I am Breathingby Louise Gallagher
Breathing
deep, slow
breaths,
ripe
with potential
life
overflowing, untroubled
by chattering minds,
warning
bells of danger
lurking.
Breathing,
there is no hunger.
Moments ease
fluid and smooth,
one breath to the next,
misty vapours
rising into the morning,
becoming
the ghost
of time
voiceless
drifting
softly away.
Breathing,
there is no thirsting.
Questions of ‘What’s next’
cannot dim
the bright blossoming of life’s
rich bounty, painting
the sky full of wonder
and awe splashed
haphazardly
against the sharp, sweet joy
of this moment passing – right now.
Breathing,
there is no yearning.
Each breath, a symphony
of delight
singing
in unison
wth every leaf and stone,
with waves
rolling in
and birds flying high.
Breathing,
there is no time to be, but now.
Arms flung wide,
neck stretched
back,
wide-eyed
receiving
life’s bounty
savouring
each drop
doused
in anticipation
of what’s next,
soaking up
sun-warmed
flesh
ripe
with possibility
spilling over
effortlessly
into the startling wonder
of being
here
alive
in this moment
right now.
Walking along the shoreline, water calm, air crisp with spring’s promise. Beau sniffs and snuffles the grass and bushes at the edge of the road, seagulls swoop and screech overhead,
I meet a woman and her dog. She shares her joy of see a pod of eight Orcas surface close in to where she stood on the rocks yesterday as dusk began to settle in.
“They appeared, and then they were gone,” she said after telling me that three seals scampered onto the rocks as the Orcas passed. Her dog barely noticed them.
Her dog and Beaumont sniff. Lose interest and continue to smell the greenery all around where we stand at the edge of the ocean.
I haven’t seen the Orcas yet. Lots of Humpback but no Orcas.
I know I will. One day. Soon. I hope.
I continue walking along and something she said about her heart feeling like it was blossoming out when she spied the whales resonates. The muse picks up the thread and when I return home, these words wove their way into substance.
Hidden Voices by Louise Gallagher
Sing out loud, he urged, but she held back, ignoring the melody stirring within her hidden behind the secrets of childhood.
Everyone can sing, he said gently. I don't dare, she demurred, then hummed a little tune to herself, a sweet, melodious note so pure, the air stilled around her, rustled through the leaves swaying gently to her song.
That was beautiful, he whispered.
She shook her head, side to side a nervous laugh escaping her lips as soft as a moonbeam kissing the night.
It was nothing, she said. Nothing we do is ever nothing if we do it from the heart, he replied.
Her heart bloomed open, a flower releasing its fragrant song.
His words rang true, a siren call, urging her voice to rise up loud and strong no matter who was listening.
This morning a beautiful friend from the poetry circle I wrote with for several years and then had to miss out on most of last year because of a competing Monday night commitment, sent a poem to our group, ‘Acceptance‘, by Kerry Hardie. (Thank you Lilli Ann)
One of the images caught my imagination. Still January.
The muse whispered, “Write it out.” So I did.
DANCES WITH THE WIND by Louise Gallagher
Still January yesterday, I walked the shoreline morning calm stretched across grey water lapping, gentle, muted sounds caressing, rocks
slick and slippery seaweed a blanket of vivid green I step, slowly, carefully, remembering
there was a time I leapt rock to rock, arms flung wide head tilted back to catch the salt-laced breeze effortless
those were the days my friend
we danced ‘til dawn and slept fast fell in and out of love faster
Who can tame the wind? A weathered branch creaks memory slips against the jagged edges of daybreak whispering only time can stifle age
Still January today, I walk along the road hugging the shoreline, close mist hangs low steel grey waves frothy, rolling in and out, in and out trees sway, leaves rustle, dances with the wind
On solid ground I walk, confident an eagle soars above time is on the wing.
Stretched across a cerulean canvas crimson streaks dance upon Mother Nature's fiery palette burnishing the sky in gold and rosy hues of painted light playing hide-and-seek amongst the clouds.
Breathe, the golden hour whispers.
Shadows lengthen calming wind-tossed seas as day prepares to welcome night's embrace.
With each exhale, the day's woes ease tensions bleed away carrying off the bitter taste of past regrets like smoke drifting upon the wind fading into twilight's hush.
Breathing, I step beyond the fading light welcoming in the mystery of darkness falling into the vast stillness of the stars whispering ancient secrets of eternity.
Time flows in one direction slow and steady it moves forward carrying us always closer and closer to the heart’s last beat where the earth waits patiently to claim us as its own.
The river winds its way through valleys and plains, carrying the scent of earth and rain, its waters overflowing with stories of the places it’s been as it pours itself into the deep vast waters of the ocean waiting patiently for its gift to become one with the endless song of its ebb and flow.
The heart, blood red beats its own rhythm as we live out our stories along the banks we call our own moving always with time’s journey moving us along until the beat is gone and we return to the earth waiting patiently to claim us as its own.
Time, like the river, refuses no heartbeat. Why then do we believe one heart's story, lived out in time’s passing days on the banks of a river we've never known is worth valuing more than another?
I walked with the trees yesterday. Listened to their leaves rustling in the breeze that blew in off the water. Felt their roots buried deep within the earth stirring the mysteries only my heart can hear.
And as I walked, I imagined I could hear the wind whispering its stories of far away places into the open branches stretched out across the sky – tales of wonder and awe, love and war, joy and sorrow. Stories it’s witnessed on its journey through time and space.
The trees have much to teach us.
In The Language of Trees by Louise Gallagher
In the language of trees, there is no me or you, only us, intertwined with roots that grip the earth that binds us deep to one another.
In the language of trees, there is no beginning, no ending, no in between, only winds of time that sculpt our limbs, whispering through leaves forever reaching out to capture sacred stories of far away places.
Each dawn unfolds a tapestry of leaves, a fleeting masterpiece of green. Every leafy tendril counts, from roots that divine the mysteries of the dark soil below to the tips of branches that sing songs of joy to the sky above.
We are a symphony of wood and leaf, earth and water wind and storm a chorus rising from the soil, each voice distinct, each song an opus a tapestry of voices, rich and deep, woven into the story of our humanity grounded in the language of trees.
The muse never tires. Always present, she flows like the sea outside my window. Enduring. Always present. Always changing.
This morning, Beaumont the Sheepadoodle and I sat in silent communion with the waves gliding across the ocean surface. Mesmerized, I heeded the muse’s urgings and let time slip away as morning crept across the sky and I found myself effortlessly breathing into the pure joy of being present, wholly embodied in the now.
It is fleeting, this being embodied in the now. Busyness. Things to do. To read. To see. Places to get to. People to connect with. Rooms to organize. And still boxes to unpack. Too many. I’m tempted to tell myself to leave them unpacked and if in six months I haven’t missed anything, to let whatever is in them be released without examining the contents of each unopened box.
We shall see…
For this moment, right now, I sit in silent communion with Beau, sipping my latte, listening to Hildegard von Bingen’s ecclesiastical sounds fill the morning air. And I breathe.
Where Tomorrow Hides by Louise Gallagher
Light stalks the darkness, slithering across cloud laden sky slipping effortlessly below the far horizon where tomorrow hides, safe beyond my sight.
Here and now, mesmerized, I sit watching undulating waves wash up from a gunmetal sea, whispering stories of far away places hidden beyond the distant edge of the world.
Tomorrow stretches, pregnant with cloudy mystery, waiting beyond this realm where I sit watching waves wash ashore.
Mesmerized time slips away and I become one with the world around me.