I awoke up this morning, my brilliance shimmering in my mind, words dancing across the refreshed screen of my imagination. I knew exactly what my blog was going to be all about today. Yeah baby. I’m hot today!  🙂

And then…

I make coffee. Feed the cat. Let the dog out. Open my computer…

and an empty wasteland of white space greets my eyes. My mind is as blank as a virgin whiteboard.

Those brilliant thoughts that I awoke to…Blank. Vanished. Gone.  Disappeared. High-tailed it to the otherworld of lost words dangling like participles in an unfinished sentence.

I search my memory banks. Dredge through the sludge of muddy thoughts that cloud my thinking clearly.

No luck. No threads of possibility to tickle my imagination.

Marley, the Great Cat, his stomach filled, leaps up onto the desk and takes up residence on my mouse pad. A sleek black ribbon of contentment, he curls up and falls asleep, one paw resting lightly on my keyboard. I move the mouse. When he lies on it my computer freezes.

Ellie sleeps through it all. She doesn’t care that I have lost the thread of the brilliant ideas that awoke in my mind when I slipped out of slumber. She doesn’t care that I am now typing away in a vain attempt to catch a glimpse of one errant thought that might just lead me back to where I began — brilliantly alive with possibility.

And that’s when the truth shimmers in the morning light.

Those thoughts I awoke with… It’s not the details of the ideas that’s important. What matters is — I knew, felt, breathed into my essential essence at the moment of awakening. In those first wakeful moments, I was my magnificent self. No filter. No voice of doubt or self-denigration interfered with my realization and acceptance of who I am.

I was completely, freely me.

And isn’t that the essence of our existence? To be completely, freely who we are?

I remember when I was in the darkness of a relationship that was killing me. I did not awaken refreshed every morning, excited to leap into my day, to ‘explode minefields’ when I leaped out of bed as Ray Bradbury described his first thoughts upon awakening into his day.

No. In the throes of self-hatred and disgust, my body ached, my mind was sluggish, my emotions dead to feeling joy, happiness, bliss, expectancy, possibility. I wanted to die so much I couldn’t conceive of my magnificence let alone awaken to it.

Now, what matters most is that for those few brief moments this morning, I knew it. I felt it. I was it.

And if I can experience it for a few brief moments every morning, imagine what is possible when I let go of self-doubt, self-limiting beliefs and mind chatter that would have me believe I’ve forgotten the essential essence of my human condition!

We are all born into the miracle of our lives. We are miraculous beings.

And then, we forget. Life happens. The thrust of our drive to survive overrides our memory of the miracle of our birth and we adapt and become the ‘I am’ of our broken dreams and memories of who we are born to be.

Our task, today and everyday, is to reconnect to our magnificence so that the world shines brightly in our light of beauty, truth and love.

I awoke this morning dreaming of what I would write. The words escaped me but the memory of who I am born to be lingers on. It’s not just a forgotten dream. It is the truth that lives deep within my soul.

I am my brilliance. My light. My beauty. My truth. I am all I am meant to be when I let go of believing I need to be anything or anyone else other than my most magnificent self. In my magnificence I create a world of beauty all around. It is in service to the world. An act of grace for humanity.

We are all magnificent. We are all lights of beauty, truth and love.

It’s up to each of us to shine as brightly as possible so that others can see in our brilliance, the reflection of their truth shining brightly.

And when we do. When we shine as brightly as we possibly can, we make a difference for all the world to see!