Thanksgiving makes a difference.

Last night at a Thanksgiving dinner party, our hostess invited each of the seven of us gathered at the table to close the meal by sharing one thing that has happened during this past year for which we are most grateful. Her 30 something daughter scoffed and asked her mom why we had to ‘close the evening’ with a sharing. It’s just a dinner party, she said. Do we have to make it anything more?

I laughed. My daughters do the same thing when I  go around the dinner table and invite people to share.

And it didn’t matter. We shared and in our sharing, gratitude blossomed in each of our hearts. Thankfulness rained down upon us as we thought about the one and the many things that were remarkable about our year for which we are grateful.

This year has been filled with a multitude of gratitudes for me. When I began it, I was worried about leaving the shelter where I’d worked for almost six years. I loved working there and was worried I would regret my decision to leave. But I didn’t. With each passing day it became clearer and clearer that leaving was the healthiest and best thing I could have done for me.

I worried at the beginning of the year I wouldn’t find work, that no one would want to hire me. And then I got really busy and discovered how strong and healthy my reputation is in the community.

I worried that I wouldn’t find my creative core again. That I had squandered it over the years of being so engrossed in work.

I need not have worried.

Creativity, like love, never dies. It waits patiently, always beating the drum of memory while we’re busy looking everywhere else for what brings meaning to our lives.

On this Thanksgiving Day I am grateful for the blessings and gifts in my life. I am grateful for my beloved, my family, my friends, the people I come in contact with.

And I am grateful for the lessons I have learned that have reminded me to open my heart to Love in everything I do. To breathe deeply and to remember with every breath the Love that connects us, you and me. One and all.

Last night at the dinner table I shared how I am grateful for every moment of my life and most of all, I am grateful for Love. I am grateful for being inspired by the one I love to write a poem a day of love. To take time every morning to spend a few moments creating an act of love to share, from my heart to his. In that sharing my sense of Love has deepened and my knowing of Love has grown.

I am blessed.

I am grateful.

I am surrounded by Love. Immersed in it. Living in it with every breath I take.

I am thankful.

Happy Thanksgiving my fellow Canadians and to all, I am grateful for your light upon my path.

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Yesterday, Alexis, my eldest daughter called me excitedly to ask me to go and check my FB page. “We’ve put up the Project True Pledge video,” she told me. As she listened in on the phone I watched it and when it was finished told her how good it is. “I wrote it,” she said. “It’s excellent,” I replied. And it is. Heartfelt. Inspiring. Connecting. “I had to work the day they were filming it,” she said. “But it doesn’t matter. I’ve still taken the pledge.”

I will Love my body.

I will respect my body.

I will listen to my body.

You can take the pledge HERE.

And vote to support Project True at the AVIVA Community fund HERE.

Angela Rinaldis is making a difference (an interview)

A self-professed type A personality, Angela Rinaldis’ words flow with the speed of coins pouring out of the winning slot machine into the hands of a happy gambler. I am like that gambler, fingers poised over my keyboard, typing furiously as I try to keep pace with Angela’s words, eager to capture every idea.

On the day we are speaking she has just launched a new line of health foods specializing in organic, gluten free breakfast cereals, her criminal law practice is busy and she’s working on fund-raising for the Project True Centre for Body Image and Eating Disorder Recovery.

She is busy. And she loves it.

And she’s making a difference.

“My heart swells every time we reach out to a person,” she tells me. And reach out she does, constantly.

Project True is the brain child of her own struggles with an eating disorder.

At 16 her struggle with food began to take on a life of its own. “I was a food hoarder and I wouldn’t even eat it,” she says with a laugh. “You’ve no idea how many Lagostina pots I’ve ruined scrubbing them and scrubbing them. I used to take butter out of the fridge wearing rubber gloves because I was convinced that somehow the fat would seep into my body and make me fat.”

Eventually, anorexia nervosa began to take its toll as it inevitably does. “I was in my final exams at law school. I was so tired. I weighed 80 lbs and am 5′ 8 1/2″. I had 8% body fat and bruises all down my spine from my backpack. I couldn’t sit, my bones rubbed everywhere. I asked the school for a deferment on some of my exams but wasn’t given the opportunity. I finished my last exam, packed up my backpack and went straight to my endocrinologist. I just couldn’t do it anymore.”

She was 26 years old. Eight years later she’s still fighting the fight, doing her utmost to live eating disorder free.

Recovery from an eating disorder is a long road and if she has her way, through Project True, recovery will be easier for women and men everywhere.

“I won’t rest until we open the Day Centre at Project True,” she says, and I imagine her eyes burning brightly. I imagine her wielding the giant scissors to cut the red tape. I imagine men and women knowing there is a place where they can get the help and support they need.

Angela Rinaldis has a vision and it is coming true.

I know this even though I am only on the phone with her for half an hour. I know this because Angela is committed, impassioned, courageous. And she’s surrounded herself and Project True with a board and volunteers that will see this through.

Not only is she a woman of conviction, she’s smart, talented and driven to succeed, not only for herself but for the thousands of women and men who suffer from disordered eating everywhere, in the Lower Mainland of B.C. where Project True is establishing its roots and all across this nation and all around the world.

“We’re so far behind in best practices,” she tells me. “You should see what they’re doing in Germany, Sweden, Australia. We need to catch up.”

And catch-up they will. Angela has a vision. And her vision is global. She sees Project True impacting legislation, changing health-care provision and insurance rules.

“I can’t get extended medical care because I’ve had an eating disorder,” she tells me. “And when it comes to organ transplants, I’m at the bottom of the list. Smokers can get lung transplants before I can get one.”

And that has to change. And Angela is committed to making it happen.

As I listen to her, as we chat, I want to stand up and cheer. To jump up and down and yell, “Go Angela Go!”

And I want to say Thank you.

I have to say Thank you.

Because Angela isn’t just a woman with a dream, a woman on a mission to create well-being for people who are suffering from disordered eating.

I have a personal connection to Angela.

Angela has helped save my daughter’s life. Angela has given my daughter Alexis a dream to hold onto, a vision to unfold.

And I am grateful.

Tears form in my eyes as I write this. Tears of gratitude. Of relief. Of joy.

As a mother with a daughter whose eating disorder was stealing her life, I am grateful that Angela Rinaldis is in this world and that she has stepped onto my daughter’s path and shared her light.

It is a bright light Angela carries and in her light many others are finding their way to well-being.

And that’s the thing about visions as big as hers. They inspire others to start shining. To step onto the path and create an illumination bright enough to carry those who still struggle with the alienation, aloneness and fear of their disordered eating out of the darkness into well-being.

Angela’s light is bright. And it is brighter and bolder if we all shine together.

Eating disorders, like depression and other mental health issues are not choices. A person, no matter their age, doesn’t suddenly wake up one day and say, “I think I’ll become anorexic.”  Just as someone doesn’t suddenly decide to become depressed. The factors leading to the disease are many and complex and they can be deadly. No matter the driving forces that lead someone down the dark road into disordered eating, finding the light to health and well-being requires resources.

And sadly, those resources are lacking.

Angela is doing something about it. And we can help.

Please  visit Project True’s page at AVIVA Community Fund and VOTE. Please vote everyday. Please help Angela and Alexis and the Joe’s and Sally’s and Anya’s and Sergei’s and Lucinda’s of the world find their way out of disordered eating into well-being.

You can make a difference — it’s easy. Just click HERE and VOTE.

Heroes In Our Midst

This is Canadian Thanksgiving weekend. Time to celebrate and give thanks. Today is also Heroes in our Midst day — and there are so many to be grateful for. From the check-out clerk who goes the extra distance to ensure you’re happy with your shopping experience to the teacher who tucks a note into her students backpacks to the stranger who stops to help someone on the road, there are heroes everywhere. Here are some of mine.

This past week has been super busy at the Calgary Counselling Centre where I’m working on contract as the Interim Director Communications. On Monday, we launched a new website. Thursday we kicked off National Depression Screening Day with a panel discussion at a breakfast and yesterday we opened registration for a webinar training series for counsellors working with couples and domestic abuse. It’s been busy and I am truly blessed to work with a team who make it seem effortless to meet deadlines and demands. It is inspiring to work with such a team — not just the communications team but all the members of the Centre’s staff. From reception to the CEO, they shine.

Yayoi, John, Tara, Caitlin, Candace, Tony, Amanda, Kate, Robbie and Kim and everyone at the Centre — you are all heroes.

On Thursday morning we kicked off NDSD with a breakfast where a panel talked about their experiences with depression. Cindy Radu, Director, Family Services at the Waterstreet Group, a lawyer/accountant and mother to a 9 year old daughter, shared her lived experiences with depression starting from her diagnosis in 2002. Maureen Kelsey from Pengrowth Energy Corporation spoke about what employers need to do to help employees and to erase the stigma around depression and Lois Hayward who heads up the counselling department at SAIT shared what educational institutions are doing to educate students on the need to take care of their mental health. MC, Adam Legge, President of the Calgary Chamber and Robbie Babins-Wagner, CEO of the Centre started the conversation which Moderator Dan Delaloye, Exec. Dir. at the Canadian Mental Health Association, Calgary Region, kept flowing. It was an inspiring morning made even more so by the appearance of Calgary’s Mayor Nenshi who took the test live. And, the media turned out to support us too. CBC Radio, CBC TV, City TV, CTV all helped make it a stellar event.

Cindy, Maureen, Lois, Adam, Robbie, Dan, Mayor Nenshi and all our media partners — you are all heroes.

Thursday I attended the farewell event for Tim Richter, former CEO of the Calgary Homeless Foundation who has now moved on to lead the national initiative to create an alliance to end homelessness across Canada. Earlier in the week I’d heard a new description for leadership — A leader is someone who is courageous, curious and humble. Listening to the speakers, and then hearing Tim speak I realized — that’s what Tim is. That’s what he has done — he’s demonstrated true leadership in the fight to end homelessness by courageously taking on something that so many believe is impossible. He’s been curious about the causes, best practices, innovative ideas and tireless in his desire to find the answers to turn the perceived impossible into the reality of possible for people experiencing homelessness on our streets. He’s worked tirelessly, not for his own benefit, but for the betterment of all society. He is a humble man and a hero.

Tim Richter is a hero.

Yesterday I had the pleasure of interviewing Angela Rinaldis — the founder and President of Project True — for my People Who Make a Difference column tomorrow. I am inspired by the work Angela is doing to raise awareness about eating disorders and to create a centre for women and men experiencing them in the lower Mainland of BC. And, I am grateful for her presence on my path too. Angela has been an inspiration for my daughter Alexis as she recovers from her own eating disorder. As I told Angela yesterday, you are a gift in my daughter’s life and a gift in mine too.

Angela is a hero.

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Tomorrow, I’ll be sharing how Angela is making a difference. Today, you can make a difference by supporting Project True at the AVIVA Community Fund. If you haven’t voted yet for Project True at AVIVA Community Fund. please take a few moments today, and everyday, to do so!  It’s a great cause, and a fabulous way to make a difference.   Here’s the link to make it easy for you!  🙂  http://www.avivacommunityfund.org/ideas/acf13435

 

How I step into my day makes a difference.

“It was a day of early beginnings and late finishes. It was a day to celebrate and experience like no other. Not because it was all that different. No, it was as it always is, just a day. But it was a day to celebrate because it was my day. It was another 24 hours in my life, and in my life, every moment is worth celebrating.”

I wrote that paragraph in my journal last night as I headed off to bed. I was tired. Content. Satisfied. I’d accomplished lots. Done lots. Experienced lots. And I was happy.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I generally end my days happy. Heck. I start my days happy! I just generally have a high happy set-point. I like my days better that way. I don’t do well living in mediocrity.

And the day had been awesome. From an early morning breakfast my amazing team and I had organized to kick-off National Depression Screening Day where three speakers shared their vision and insight into depression and its impact on their lives and what they saw as the possibilities for change to the Mayor’s presence and willingness to take the test live, the morning started out with a bang. And it kept going. A late afternoon reception for the remarkable Tim Richter who has left the Calgary Homeless Foundation to lead the charge of the nationwide alliance to end homelessness to dinner with my youngest daughter, the day was filled with remarkable and memorable moments.

And yet, it was a day just like the others. And, it was a day like no other.

Just as today will be a day like no other. Because today is the most important day of my life. Today is the day I get to live on purpose. On track. With passion. In pursuit of my dreams, my vision, my goals, my aspiration.

Today is the only day I get to do it my way, right now. Sure, there’ll be tomorrow too but right now, this is where I’m at and it’s up to me to fill this moment with what matters most to me. It’s my responsibility to live my day on the other side of my comfort zone, out there in the heady airs of my lightness of being filled with laughter, freedom and passion.

It’s my day.

What about you? Are you willing to make today like no other? Are you willing to live it up in the rapture of now knowing this is your one and only precious life. Your time. Your moment. Your possibility to be all that you are, right now, right here.

What could happen today if you chose to be, right now, right here, the lightness of your being filled with all that matters to you, filled with all that you want to create more of in your life?

What kind of difference would you make today if you chose to take each step filled with the passion of being your most amazing self exactly the way you are, in this moment right now, right where you’re at?

These are the questions I like to ask myself every morning. And every morning the answer is always the same — If not now when? If not me who?

It doesn’t matter if life has served me a bowl full of cherries or nothing but peanuts. What matters is what will I make with each moment I’ve been given.

Will I let this moment go to waste wishing and hoping things could be different. Or, will I leap into the moment filled with the desire and knowing I have the capacity to create change, to make a difference right now in my life so that in my being all that I am meant to be I create a world of possibility all around me.

The choice is mine. How I step into my day makes a difference. Let me step with lightness and joy being me every step of the day.

 

 

National Depression Screening Day

Today is National Depression Screening Day. The team at the Calgary Counselling Centre where I am working as the Interim Director of Communications has been working hard over the past few weeks to have everything ready for today’s events.

The test is live. It’s fast. Easy and anonymous. Anyone can take it. Everyone should. If only to know they are not at risk of depression. And if they are, to inform themselves so that they can do something about it.

Untreated, depression can kill. One in five Canadians will suffer a depressive episode and only 20% will seek treatment. Untreated, no matter how mild it begins, depression can deepen and in its deepening, you can sink below the ‘healthy’ state of being into that place where the only way out appears as the option no one should ever take. Suicide.

I know a lot about suicidal thinking. For much of the 4 years 9 months that I was in that relationship from hell, I wanted to die. I wanted to erase my presence from earth, erase all memory of my passing through this world from the minds of those I love. I did not want my journey to be one of pain and wanted to do everything I could to take away the pain I had caused my daughters, family, friends. And the only way I thought I could do that was to take my own life.

I am grateful today that I never did it. At the time, not doing it wasn’t through lack of ruminating on ways of doing it or imagining the release of my pain if I did. I didn’t do it because I didn’t want to. My not doing it was because I was too scared that if I did, my daughters would take it to mean I didn’t love them. And I didn’t want them to live with that belief. Because in that belief is the seed of the idea that they were to blame for my not loving them which would in cascade into the nullifying belief that they were unlovable. And that was too painful for me to conceive of. I couldn’t do it to them. I couldn’t leave them with that belief.

And so, instead, I disappeared in the hopes they would forget about me.

Isn’t life amazing?

From the deepest darkest pockets of my despair has grown this incredible life of joy and love and passion.

Taking care of our mental health is important.

And it can begin with a simple test that will give each of us a benchmark on where we’re at in our emotional well-being today.

At the Centre’s website today, Craig Lester has written a powerful blog about his journey through depression. Two years ago, he didn’t know why he was feeling so negative and despairing until he took the test last year. Now, Craig is filled with life. He has dreams and is working to make them real. And, he’s speaking out.

You can too.

Speak. Speak out. You make a difference.

Every 40 seconds, somewhere in the world someone takes their own life.

From my own experience of having been in that place where suicide felt like the only way out, I know how challenging it is to speak up FOR life. My voice had become so silent, my being present in this world so still, I did not believe I had the capacity to speak up or move from that dark tunnel of fear I inhabited.

Now I know I can. And in my speaking up I want everyone to know, no matter how dark the moment, how deep their despair, there is help. Reach for it. There are hands waiting to reach back.

Even when you feel no one will be there. Even when you tell yourself there is no point, it’s futile, no one’s listening, watching, caring. Reach out. You don’t have to speak. You don’t have to say a word. Just reach. And keep reaching. Keep moving into and through the fear all is lost. Keep reaching for the phone to call the Distress Centre. Keep reaching for the hand next to yours. Keep reaching out of yourself into the world around you.

Today is National Depression Screening Day. Please take the test and tell everyone you know about it. You could help save a life.

Every action makes a difference

It was a morning of two back-to-back speaks on behalf of the United Way yesterday. I had just finished my first talk when a woman walked up to thank me. “Your talk really touched me,” she said. And she began to cry.

“Breathe,” I told her quietly. “Big deep breath.”

She took a big shaky breath and kept talking. “It’s just I moved here three years ago from,” and she named a former Communist Bloc country. “I too had such an experience and what you said is so true. We have to help people when they fall.”

I use the story of the ‘bad man’ and falling on the road to hell as the foundation of my United Way talk. I use it to demonstrate that people fall, but when there’s a net to catch them, the fall doesn’t kill them. And, when caught in caring arms, it’s easier to stand back up again and walk free.

The woman and I chatted for a few moments. She told me about working with immigrant women to help them acclimatize to their new homeland, and to help them put their pasts into perspective.

I thought about what she may have experienced in her homeland. What so many of these women from foreign lands experience every day in the name of war blasting through their country under the guise of freedom.

As I drove back downtown I listened in on a conversation on CBC RAdio’s, The Current, as Anna Maria Tremonte interviewed people about sexual abuses in Syria, where, as happens in so many conflicts, rape is used as a weapon of war.

Lauren Wolfe, the Director of Women Under Siege, a project on sexualized violence and conflict at the Women’s Media Centre founded by feminist Gloria Steinem in New York spoke about the shame that befalls a woman who is raped. How she is cast out, or married off if a man takes her body out-of-wedlock. She talked about women being forced to build their own huts and having to live alone on the edges of her village. About being stoned. Being thrashed. Being shunned.

Rape is a cheap way to wage war. Through rape, the entire community is destroyed by shame. And when you destroy community, you gain control and have a better chance of winning the war.

And I was saddened. Infuriated. Confused.

I know this is happening in our world today and I don’t want to know this is happening in our world today. And that is the problem. My not wanting to know is not making the kind of difference I want to make in the world.

And I thought about the woman who came up to speak to me after my talk. What courage. What commitment. What hope.

I may not be able to stop rape in villages on the other side of the world. I may not be able to prevent war or make peace in foreign lands, but right now, right here, I can decide to be the peace I want to create in the world. I can make choices to activate my capacity to make a difference, to be courageous, to be committed to create hope where none exists.

There is so much we can do right here, right now to make a difference.

We can volunteer. We can speak up. We can write our government representatives and tell them what we want them to do about poverty, justice, affordable housing, and yes, the abuse of women everywhere. We can take action.

Sitting here at my desk on a somewhat snowy morning in Calgary, it’s hard to imagine that right now a woman is being raped, a child is being abused, a bullet is being fired. And yet, somewhere in the world, this is so.

The biggest challenge of our age is not that it is happening, it is that we believe we are powerless to do anything about it.

I can’t, nor do I want to, fly around the world to areas of high conflict. I’m not trained nor qualified to step into a war zone and make a difference.

What I am qualified to do is make a difference from where I sit this morning, right now. What I am capable of doing is to use the tools at my disposal to give voice to what is happening in the world around me and to ensure whatever I do, I am not contributing to conflict, to abuse, or war.

I can be my best at being a peace-maker by creating peace through every act and every breath. Like the woman who spoke with me after my talk, I can give back to ensure there is a net to catch people when they fall, and caring arms to help them get back up again.

What about you? Are you willing to make a difference by taking action?

 

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Have you voted today?  http://www.avivacommunityfund.org/ideas/acf13435

 

You can make a difference!

This morning I am asking for your support. You can make a difference — and it’s easy!

Below, I have pasted in a letter my daughter, Alexis, has written on Facebook in support of Project True’s bid for funding at the AVIVA Community Fund site. Yes. This is a shameless commercial bid to support my daughter. She is working with Project True, a Vancouver based not-for-profit looking to raise funds to build a healing centre for women and men with eating disorders. And, I’d like to see her succeed. And, I’m asking for your support!

It’s relatively simple. The AVIVA Community Fund is a ‘by votes’ competition. The project that receives the most votes goes on to each subsequent round until a winner in 3 separate categories is announced. Each winner receives a portion of the $1million AVIVA commits to the Fund every year.

Every vote makes a difference. Every vote counts. Over the course of each voting round you can vote once a day (from each separate email address you hold). It’s important to vote every day as your vote bank depletes whether you use your daily vote or not. 13 days = 13 votes per voter email.

So…. please help make a difference. Take a view moments to click on the link below — if you’re not registered — it only takes moments to register to be eligible to vote. And then, voting every day only takes seconds.

You can also make a difference by posting the link to the Project True page on your Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest pages. You know the jig. Exposure is the key. This is where the power of social media and its capacity to ‘go viral’ works best!

In the next few days, Project True will be posting a short video — stay tuned!

Please, do what you can to help. You will truly make a difference today, and every day you vote.

This is the link to the Project True page at the AVIVA Community Fund site.

http://www.avivacommunityfund.org/ideas/acf13435

And, this is the letter my daughter shared on Facebook.

Dear Friends and Family,

I am reaching out to you today on behalf of the thousands of Canadians who are struggling in silence. A year ago, I was one of them.

For many years I kept my battle with an eating disorder a secret. I was afraid of what the repercussions of breaking my silence might be. What I didn’t know until I began my journey towards recovery was that my silence cost me far more than being free.

My recovery would not have been possible without the incredible community I am surrounded by. My family, friends, and coworkers have given me the gift of strength and courage in the face of my fears. This was not a journey I could have made alone.

I know though that I am lucky. I had the financial, emotional and medical resources that countless others do not have access to. In my city alone, the waiting lists for treatment far exceed the available care.

I am working now with a non-profit organization called Project True. It is our mission to ensure that every individual who is struggling with disordered eating, regardless of age, gender, income, or level of health, has access to support, compassion, and hope.

It is my hope that, in breaking my silence, I might pay forward the incredible gifts that were given to me. My recovery has taken a community. Building the first Project True Centre for Body Image and Eating Disorder Recovery will too.

Help us build it. Cast your vote daily at http://www.facebook.com/l/dAQGUaYbRAQGSRd62SJk4zDbCjNIWSzQz32Me2uJ_h-Jiig/www.avivacommunityfund.org/ideas/acf13435

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. With all my heart,

Alexis

A sojourn by the lake makes a difference.

We are home.

After a relatively uneventful day of travelling we are back on the other side of the country, nestled in our home city at the foot of the Rockies. As we drove in from the airport last night I commented on the most striking difference between Calgary and Ottawa — there are no trees. As we travelled down the Deerfoot Highway into city centre, no trees lined the freeway. No trees meandered up hillsides. No trees shed leaves.

It is a stark difference between Ottawa. There, as we drove into the city and connected to the airport freeway, trees lined the roadways, hillsides, everywhere. And all of them were changing colour — except for the conifers of course. They were still dark green and fully dressed for winter.

This is a prairie city. Though the Rockies are just a short 45 minute drive to the west, here, the plains spill out onto the wide open prairies where winds and time scour the landscape leaving few trees standing amidst a view that goes on into tomorrow.

It is a stunning juxtaposition. Verdant valleys and hillsides on one side of the country, sparse windswept prairies on the western slopes.

To get the long view erase the trees. To see into tomorrow, keep the landscape sparse.

Holy Icon Studio

Yesterday, before we left I walked down to the dock and soaked in the silence and beauty of the water. I wandered up the trail into the woods, stepped over twigs and rocks, meandered around fallen branches and stood beneath towering pines. It was misty. Cloudy. Magical. Chipmunks chattered. Birds flit amongst the leaves. Sweet song rising in the morning light.

My hostess and I took a jaunt over to an artist’s studio to pay tribute to his works — stunning icons Janusz Charczuk creates in the style of the old masters. I must use gold leaf, he told me, in order to be faithful to the tradition of the icon and to glorify God. His beautiful log cabin studio, tucked into the woods, is  a peaceful oasis that invites the soul to rest, to breathe deeply, to revel in the beauty of the world all around.

And then we were off. Bags full. Car packed. We hit the road and drove west to Ottawa.

And now we’re home.

and the highlight of the day…. as we flew westward the Northern Lights danced across the horizon to the north. As we drove home, sheets of green and yellow and white light shimmered in the night, lighting up the sky in a technicolor display of majesty.

It was stunning and a much appreciated welcome home!

I am tired this morning. Our flight was delayed an hour and a half out of Toronto. What should have been an 8:30 arrival into Calgary turned into 10pm. Baggage. Car. Drive home and it was after 11 when we got to bed.

And now, a busy day ahead. Much to do. Much to organize, create, experience.

As I downloaded my photos this morning from my iPhone I looked in awe of where I was yesterday to where I am today. There is beauty all around. Being home. Being in my own bed. Being greeted by Ellie (who is still sulking btw — the wonder pooch doesn’t like it when I go away). All of this makes for beauty of its own nature.

The Doggy Hat!

Yesterday, I walked in the trees and stood by the water and breathed into the silence of the world around me.

Today, I breathe into the quiet of this early morning hour letting the silence and familiar comfort of my home settle upon me like the morning mists upon the lake.

I have a busy day ahead.

It isn’t the places I go that make the difference. It’s the joy I breathe into where ever I am that creates the greatest joy in my life.

Yesterday I was immersed in autumn leaves falling. Today, I am immersed in my everyday life, my spirits lifted by my sojourn by the lake, my heart full with time spent laughing, sharing, being with people I love.

Life is good. And that makes all the difference in the world.

 

Beauty is the difference nature makes

Today was to have been a guest post but… because I was away on holidays, I didn’t organize it! So… not guest post and just a really short post from me — mostly because it is our last morning here. The trees are ablaze, there is no mist on the lake and Ula and I are off to take in a few more exhibits on the Madawaska Valley Studio Tour before C.C. and I pack up the car and head to the airport at 1pm.

We spent the day yesterday driving through the countryside visiting artist studios. Tucked in the folds of valleys ripened with fall leaves, nestled in clearings in the woods, the artist studios we visited were oasis of creativity blossoming in the valley. It’s clear the Group of Seven have influenced artists throughout the valley. As has Robert Bateman who used to paint in the are. But perhaps the most spectacular and influential visit was with Horst Maria Guilhauman. The setting of his studio is like a postcard from a Monet masterpiece. Gently sloping hillside filled with autumn flowers in bloom leading to the waters of a dark surfaced pond reflecting the golds and reds of maples and dark green of the firs standing sentinel on the far side. A duck drifting along the pond’s surface. Clouds scuttling by overhead, their reflection the only movement on the water’s surface. Birdsong. A crow cawing. A two-storey wooden house with giant windows looking out to the verdant scene beyond.

We enter and Horst greets us, his German accent still detectable after 40+ years in Canada. He is wiry. Energetic. Intense. At 77 his energy is contagious. His enthusiasm for his art, philosophy, life inspiring.

He gives us commentary on the paintings (mostly prints and giclees) on the lower level of his gallery before leading us up to the second floor. “Watch your head”, he calls out as we climb the circular metal stairs leading upwards. And when we arrive in his ‘aerie’ we are greeted by giant paintings of incredible tones and colours and hues. This is where his ‘real’ art is on show, he says. This is where he shines.

And wow! What a show. The upper level is awash in light and colour. Thre three rooms leading back to his studio are a masterpiece in and of themself. Stunning.

Horsts ability to capture realism is unbelievable. And his ability to translate thought, philosophy, idea into substance on the canvas is incredible. Do visit his website. While seeing his paintings on the screen is good — in life they are absolutely incredible.

As we were leaving, Ula, who is also an artist asked him about creating fog on her canvas. “You can only use oils’ he tells her. And then goes into an indepth lesson in how to create he effect she seeks.

Gracious. Convivial. Welcoming.

We spent an hour with Horst Maria Guilhauman and I wanted to race home, haul out my paints and get busy. I may just do that next week!

Blessings to all. We fly out this evening and tomorrow, I’ll post photos from the week. I shall miss my sojourn in the forest by the lake, but shall carry the memories in my heart – and beauty never grows old. It is always inspiring my spirit to take flight and soar!

And that is what made the difference here – to be surrounded by nature’s beauty, soaking up the essence of the forest and lakes, the sky above. Immersing myself in wonder everyday. Beauty never grows old when nature is at play with all my senses.

Heroes in our midst

The woods are silent this morning. Still. A gentle fog has rolled in from the lake, shrouding the world in misty silence. It is beautiful. Serene. Mystical.

And in their mysterious sheath, heroes walk. Heroes of everyday makings. Heroes who serve and help and smile as they go about doing their everyday business with extraordinary style.

Yes, it is Saturday. Time to celebrate heroes in our midst.

Ula, one of our hosts here at Barry’s Bay is a hero. Yesterday, we went off to discover leaves falling and reflections on the water in Algonquin Park. C.C. and I rented a Mustang convertible for our journey. Electric blue it’s sleek and powerful and on a day like yesterday, a real attention getter. Especially if the roof is down and your passenger is wearing a knitted hat that resembles a dog’s face complete with grey furry ears that flap in the wind!  (I’d post the photo but can’t from this computer — later!)  We had a blast and Ula made it even more fun with her outrageous get-up and welcoming smile where ever we went.

Ula is a hero.

We were too late for lunch at Killarney Lodge but the gatekeeper didn’t hold it against us. While ‘outsider’ guests are not generally welcome outside of meal times, he let us on the property so we could wander the trails and take pictures of the flowers and trees. “I like your car… and hat,” he added with a welcoming smile.

The gatekeeper and everyone who keeps the area so beautiful and serene, are heroes.

On our way back from gawking at the leaves yesterday we stopped for a late lunch at the Mad Musher Restaurant in Madawaska. At the table beside us a young couple shared a meal and oohed and aahhed over their young 8 week old son, Ryder. Watching that couple, chatting with them, witnessing their love and excitement over their child, I felt wrapped in a world of possibility. I remembered those days of new born awe. Such beauty. Joy and trepidation all wrapped up in one. And always, the knowing that what you are embarking on is of great importance to the world. Shepherading in a new birth, a new life to this world of wonder is a significant and courageous task.

New parents everywhere are heroes.

And…. how can I not give a shout-out to Nature? Her magnificence. Her beauty. Her stunning display of colour, texture, tone, depth. Yesterday, surrounded by leaves turning, by blue sky soaring into infinity, by water stretching from tree lined shore to tree lined shore where birds flew high and squirrels and chipmunks chittered in the trees and deep in the forests unseen beasts roamed, I breathed deeply of nature’s bounty and was grateful. Deep within the rapture of the moment, I felt nature wrap her arms around me as I fell into awe with the wonder and majesty of the world all around.

Nature is a hero and those who safeguard her forests and lakes are heroes too.

And… to set the mood for celebrating heroes and nature all around, below is a video of David Arkenstone’s Magic Forest.

David Arkenstone and all those who create music and art to celebrate nature all around us are heroes.