Trying to find a Buddha or enlightenment is like trying to grab space. Space has a name but no form. It’s not something you can pick up or put down. And you certainly can’t grab it. Beyond this mind you’ll never see a Buddha. The Buddha is a product of your mind. Why look for a Buddha beyond this mind?
– Bodhidharma ∞ Thich Nhat Hanh Philosophy & Practice
I used to think there was a place to be. A place where on this journey of life I’d know, deep within me, I had arrived.
And once there, I’d never leave.
I’m so human!
I’m learning, there is no such ‘place’. No such “I’ll never leave because here is where I’m awake, aware and conscious. And that’s how I shall always be forever more.”
I have had moments of feeling enlightened. Moments of feeling like, “AHA! This is it. This is what they mean to let go.”
And then, that place moves away. I move on. Life shifts.
I am learning that being where I am, in this moment, is more precious than trying to get to ‘the next’.
That being conscious of what is happening to me and around me right now, is more fulfilling than dreaming of what will be in the moment coming up.
I am learning.
Enlightenment is not a place to be, a thing to achieve or hold onto. It is a way. A way of living in this moment without trying to make this moment count more than the last, or less than the next.
It is a balance. A balance of being real and human. Being present and unaware. Being vulnerable and protected. Setting boundaries. Pushing through them.
It is not letting one or the other override either.
It is letting one and the other exist in this moment, this space, together.
It is claiming my right to be heard, seen, known while honouring with equal respect, everyone else’s right to be heard, seen, known.
It is… being human.
Which means, honouring my capacity to stand up while falling down. To give in while holding out. To hold on while letting go.
It means embracing the contradictions while holding firm to certainty.
Speaking truth while making space for other’s truth to be spoken knowing, there is truth in all things yet all things are not true.
It means, not striving to be anyone or anything other than who I am in this moment. Right now. Knowing, this moment right now will not last forever.
I used to think I had to get somewhere to know I’d arrived.
I’ve learned that what I know is nothing compared to what I don’t know.
And that’s okay. Because in the duality of knowing what I don’t know, I am learning that being where I am is the best place to be for me to see the possibilities of where I can go when I let go of believing I have to get somewhere else to be who I am.
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