When I began the #ShePersisted series I thought that I would create 12 images and quotes for the series, and that would be that.
Ideas continue to flow. The muse persists.
I am grateful.
The muse and I have a love/hate relationship. She loves me 100% of the time, I am not so loyal. In fact, I like to tell myself, I don’t need her. Or, in my willful disregard of her presence, I like to believe she has deserted me.
It is my victim’s voice. That monkey mind chattering place where I tell myself all sorts of things to justify why/how/what isn’t happening in my life, isn’t my fault/responsibility/accountability.
I cannot control 100% of what appears on my path. I can choose to be 100% accountable for what I choose to do with what appears.
This morning, the muse awakened me with her insistence I pay heed.
I decided to get 100% accountable and take her lead.
The thoughts that awoke me were about my youngest daughter’s ballet point shoes that still hang from the corner of the armoire in my art storage room downstairs.
They are pink. Scuffed. Well worn.
I remember the first time she danced ‘en pointe’. She was so excited, in spite of the pain.
She continued to persist, to push herself to dance ‘en pointe’ because it was so beautiful, so seemingly effortless when done well.
It was never effortless. And it always hurt.
In her teens, her feet were a mess.
I am grateful today for her wisdom to stop doing it.
I didn’t want to interfere. I didn’t want to take a stand against doing something she obviously loved, even though it caused her pain.
Life’s like that. We do things, in spite of the pain, telling ourselves we have no choice. To be a ballerina, you must dance ‘en pointe’.
To be a woman, you must wear clothes, shoes, outfits that squeeze, reveal, bunch, crunch and push up places that don’t need pushing up and scrunching in. Not to please ourselves, but rather, because we believe it is important to please others.
I like my daughters point shoes hanging in my art storage room.
They are a good reminder to stop doing things to please others, even though it hurts me.
May your day be filled with ease of heart, mind, and body. May you have the wisdom to stop doing things to please others if doing them hurts you.